I wrote this after reading Breaking Dawn for like the
3rd or 4th time and I thought to myself "What if Bella hadn't become such
a great vampire after all?" All characters (apart from Etienne) are
borrowed from Stephenie Meyer. Thank you for Twilight Stephenie, you inspired
me to start writing again!
Title: NEWBORN
Category: Books » Twilight
Author: kizzymouse
Language: English, Rating: Rated: T
Genre: Supernatural/Fantasy
Published: 10-07-10, Updated: 10-07-10
Chapters: 22, Words: 24,397
Category: Books » Twilight
Author: kizzymouse
Language: English, Rating: Rated: T
Genre: Supernatural/Fantasy
Published: 10-07-10, Updated: 10-07-10
Chapters: 22, Words: 24,397
NEW BORN
Bella has been changed into a vampire by Edward after being
on the brink of death as she gave birth to their daughter. But all has not gone
to plan and she wakes up to her new life a vicious newborn vampire. Full of
blood lust and rage, how will she cope with her new life? This story tells the
tale of what life would have been like if Bella hadn't become such a great
vampire after all. We begin the story with the words of Stephenie Meyer...
PROLOGUE
My heart took off, beating like helicopter blades, the
sound almost a single sustained note; it felt like it would grind through my
ribs. The fire flared up in the center of my chest, sucking the last remnants
of the flames from the rest of my body to fuel the most scorching blaze yet.
The pain was enough to stun me, to break through my iron grip on the stake. My
back arched, bowed as if the fire was dragging me upward by my heart. I allowed
no other piece of my body to break rank as my torso slumped back to the table.
It became a battle inside me—my sprinting heart racing against the attacking
fire. Both were losing. The fire was doomed, having consumed everything that
was combustible; my heart galloped toward its last beat. The fire constricted,
concentrating inside that one remaining human organ with a final, unbearable
surge. The surge was answered by a deep, hollow-sounding thud. My heart
stuttered twice, and then thudded quietly again just once more. There was no
sound. No breathing. Not even mine.
For a moment, the absence of pain was all I could
comprehend.
And then I opened my eyes and gazed above me in wonder.
(Copyright Stephenie Meyer Chapter 19 -
"Burning" Breaking Dawn page 287)
CHAPTER ONE
THE THIRST
BELLA CULLEN:
I could see everything so clearly. It was as if a veil had
been lifted from my eyes. Eyes which were once chocolate brown and human. I now
saw the world through a red haze, my new vampire eyes seeing things in minute
and glorious detail. From my crouched position in the corner, where I had
propelled myself from the bed; I could see every mote of dust, every grain of
wood on the floorboards, each and every detail multiplied a thousand times.
I looked up to see the Cullen's staring at me intently. All
of them poised to see what I would do next. They were even more beautiful,
strange and terrifying than I had previously thought. Edward's face was simply
stunning, how could I have thought he was just beautiful before? He was
perfection, sheer perfection. He kept his steady gaze on me, his topaz eyes
boring into mine. I heard a deep growling snarl and realized it had come from
me; the sound was completely foreign yet felt absolutely natural at the same
time.
I heard a thrumming sound coming from another room
downstairs like the delicate beating of butterfly wings. The sound was enticing
and I focused on it entirely, oblivious to Edward softly calling my name,
“Bella, Bella love. How do you feel?"
Although I registered his words I could not concentrate on
the syllables. All I could hear was the delicate thrumming noise. Another low
growl issued forth from my clenched jaws as the noise drove into the deepest
center of my brain, making me feel so strange and overcome. It took another
second or two for my new vampire senses to realize that the only sensation I
was feeling so completely was thirst. A deep longing thirst. The beating noise
intensified and I knew I had to find the source of this thing which had become
my universe. The Cullen's, even Edward, meant nothing to me, I only wanted to
quench this burning thirst which tore through my throat and stomach.
I flew through the air in a blur and was out of the room and
downstairs before anyone could stop me in a flash of speed and light. I zoomed
in on the noise which was penetrating my brain so intensely. It came from the
small sleeping form in the wicker basket placed on the floor next to the grand
white piano.
I growled again as my hands flew out and reached into the
basket. I heard Edward scream "No Bella! That's our daughter! Renesmee! “
But his words meant nothing to me in my quest to cool this
burning thirst and hunger. Before I could reach into the basket and snatch this
warm meal I heard another loud beating sound and smelled something so delicious
I felt venom flood my mouth as I turned around quickly. A very human Jacob
Black was rushing towards me, his face contorted with rage and fear. His arms
were outstretched as he reached out to push me away. I growled and lunged at
him, my new vampire teeth sinking through his neck; feeling the delicious taste
of blood flow down my throat. I gave myself up to the sweet pleasure as Jacob's
body slumped against me in submission. I moaned in pleasure, but it was short
lived as I felt strong arms pulling me away.
“Bella NO!"
Edward screamed his voice full of fear and anguish.
Through my red haze I
saw Jacob on the floor, moaning in pain his hand clutching the wound I had
made. The sight of the luscious scarlet blood was driving me crazy and I used
my new found strength to pull away from Edward's arms. I flew at Jacob again
just as Carlisle frantically sucked at the wound, desperately trying to remove
the venom from Jacob's veins before it reached his heart. This time I was
stopped by four strong arms. Edward, Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper held onto me
tightly. I snarled and growled and tried to wrench myself free.
"Jasper, please try to calm her," Alice begged.
"I'm
trying!" He shouted desperately.
My rage and thirst was all consuming and I did not care if I
hurt these humans or vampires. I felt nothing as I watched Carlisle trying to
save Jacob's life. All I wanted was the blood. The smell of it was driving me
crazy with desire. Carlisle scooped Jacob's lifeless form up into his arms and
flew out of the door disappearing quickly into the night. I howled with
frustration and my intense need which had to be satisfied.
Alice scooped up the infant from the basket and also
disappeared as quickly as a flash. The bundle was my daughter? I could not
comprehend that fact at the moment. I struggled and wrenched myself away from
my captors, their strength proving to be no match for mine. I turned to face
them through the red haze covering my eyes. They looked scared and confused.
"Why did Alice
not see this happening?" Edward asked, his voice torn with emotion.
I growled at them all and turning quickly I flew out of the
door and into the cold starlit night. Only one thought invaded my brain.
I must have blood. I must feed. Blood. Blood.
Blood!
CHAPTER TWO
NO REGRETS
EDWARD CULLEN:
I stared out of the window as the sun rose in the deep pink
morning sky. My still heart ached and longed for my love, my wife, my reason
for existing. I knew deep down I should have prepared myself for this outcome;
but I truly believed Bella was special, that she would have made the perfect
vampire straight away. I thought her motherly instincts would take over and she
would only want to care for her daughter.
I did not expect this; she desired to kill her own flesh and
blood and physically harm her best friend? Incomprehensible! This was not the
Bella I knew and adored. I totally accept that this is my fault. I stupidly
thought we could have a sexual relationship; I truly didn't believe Bella could
or would get pregnant. Gosh I sound like a silly naive human boy! But I wasn't
human, I was a vampire. And now so was she, thanks to me. I always worried I
would hurt her by being intimate, but I never dreamed she would become
pregnant. At first I was horrified by it all, the baby was killing her and
eventually it did. There was never any choice. I had to change Bella or lose
her.
But you have to understand – I couldn't live without her.
She is my life, my soul, my heart. If she had died I would have brought death
upon myself somehow. She had to exist; I had to change her. Now she was a
vicious strong newborn; the very thing we feared for her. Bella and I had talked
about this situation loads and we thought we could cope. But that was before.
Before she became pregnant with our daughter. But how could I have regrets when
my beautiful Bella still lived? And she was stunningly, breathtakingly
beautiful as a fledgling even though she was now a dangerous predator.
To see Bella lurching towards Renesmee with evil intent was
more than I could bear. My daughter was the most precious beautiful creature
made from the pure love I shared with her Mother. Bella hadn't even gotten a
chance to meet her, to hold her, to see how truly wonderful our little hybrid
was. If I could cry I would be weeping bitter sad tears right now. I feared
what Bella would do out there by herself. Where did she go? What happened last
night when she left? I tried to track her, to follow her scent but I lost it a
few miles past the Canadian border. I howled at the full moon with frustration
when I realized I had lost her. The pain was unbearable and I was at a loss
what to do next.
Renesmee had captured my heart as soon as I had gazed into
her chocolate brown eyes. She was an angel; not the demon I had feared. Even
though her birth had caused Bella's human death, all I could possibly feel for
her was pure love. Bella was going to be changed anyway as we'd decided, it was
just much sooner than I'd expected and under extreme circumstances.
I still hadn't totally come around to that idea as I hated
the thought of taking away my Bella's soul. But I had resigned myself to the
fact that one day she would be like me and my family. All through our honeymoon
I realized that she actually was enjoying being human with all the emotions,
feelings and sensations which accompanied that, especially since we had become
lovers. Now our world had been turned upside down with the appearance of a baby
and Bella becoming a newborn; a terrible, strong vicious newborn.
I paced up and down my thoughts consumed with worry for my
wife. Where was she? What had she done? Why couldn't I track her? Alice
couldn't "see" her either. This was a disaster. I had to find her!
But where to look? She could be anywhere. A newborn relies on instinct only and
is driven by a thirst for human blood. Without guidance she would easily become
a heartless monster, an evil killing machine. I just did not know what to do
and it was tearing me apart, my still heart felt as if it would shatter into a
million pieces.
I heard a soft mewling sound as I turned to find Rosalie
with my daughter in her arms. Renesmee's perfect little face peeped out from
the safety of Rosalie's arms. Even though she was only a few days old she was
already dazzling. I took my baby daughter from Rosalie and held onto her
tightly, whispering words of love against the soft skin of her rosy cheek.
"I love you so much sweet baby," I cooed.
She gurgled happily and touched a small finger to my temple.
I gasped as images flooded my mind. I saw the world through my baby's eyes. I
saw how terrifying Bella had appeared as she swooped down to snatch Renesmee; I
saw in horror as Jacob lay bleeding and dying on the floor; I felt all the love
she had for both Bella and I as she watched me struggle to contain her Mother.
I felt her fear, terror and confusion at Bella's behaviour. I felt her deep
sorrow at Jacob's pain. Jacob Black had imprinted on my baby daughter,
something which I wasn't altogether happy about to say the least, but they
seemed to have a strong bond already.
Then she "showed" me Jacob lying in bed upstairs,
although weak he lit up like a candle when Rosalie had taken her to visit him.
Her pure joy at Jacob being alive and unharmed except for a crescent shaped
wound on his neck where Bella had bitten him. Carlisle had saved him by sucking
out the venom, but in doing so Carlisle had also helped Jacob to heal. Venom
was a double edged sword. Jacob had a good immune system anyway being a
shape-shifter. Renesmee showed me other pictures of Jacob and her; Jacob tickles
her, Jacob feeds her a bottle of blood; Jacob is singing her to sleep. It was
amazing: my precious baby had a very special talent. Finally she moved her
finger from my temple and the visions subsided.
Rosalie nodded and
smiled at me, “So, now you know what Renesmee can do. Edward, isn't she
amazing!" Rosalie gushed.
I kissed my
daughter's head and gazed at her in wonder. She was now curled up against my
shoulder sleeping soundly.
"Oh Rose! If anything good has come out of this then it
must be this amazing creature here! She is the most precious sweet thing! But
Rose, I'd do anything to have Bella back! I'm going crazy here," I wailed
with anguish.
Rosalie sighed and gently took Renesmee from me. She didn't
say anything. I knew she had never wanted Bella to be changed. I also knew she
would do her best to kill Bella if she ever tried to hurt Renesmee again. I
slumped down on the sofa my head in my hands. I wish I knew what to do. I must
speak to Carlisle. He would know what I should do next. I still had no regrets
about saving Bella by changing her. I loved her beyond reason and always would.
I must find her, bring her home and show her how
much I love and need her. We would get through this. We had to.
CHAPTER THREE
BLOODLUST
BELLA CULLEN:
Finally my thirst was sated. I didn't believe this fulfilled
state would last for long though. Without the burning, raging thirst inside me
I had time to reflect on the change I'd gone through. I could think semi
clearly without the all empowering need to feed overwhelming my senses. The
sensible rational part of me which still remained cringed inwardly with horror
when I thought of the terrible things I had done tonight.
I was a murderer.
I paced the floorboards of the old abandoned house I'd found
to hide in. Dawn was arriving any minute now and I was frightened of being seen
in the daylight. Could I survive in the light? What if the sun was shining?
Bright red eyes and pale marble skin weren't hard to miss. I would be
discovered in an instant. I needed guidance. I needed my family. That was
impossible though. I was changed beyond all recognition. I was a monster. They
were refined vegetarians. I was an uncouth killer. Who would soon need to do it
all again. I screamed inside as my hands involuntarily clenched into hard fists
and I crushed the table by the window easily; the wood crumbling and
splintering into dust under my immense strength. I marvelled at how strong and
invincible I felt. The blood had made me even stronger and my senses were sharp
and clear. I knew my best plan of action would be to hide here until nightfall.
My thoughts wandered to my daughter. Edward had called her
Renesmee just as I had suggested. I cannot remember her features. All I
remember was honing in on something delicious and warm; something full of blood
with a loud, strong beating heart. I did not connect this to my daughter. But I
knew instinctively this was the reason the Cullen's had tried to restrain me.
To stop me feeding on and killing my own daughter. I remember the taste of
Jacob's blood. The completeness of feeding on him. I should feel horror but I
don't. My human emotions have gone. I'm a killer now. I did hope that Jacob
wasn't dead though. He was my best friend. Was.
I couldn't think clearly, I had to though. I needed a plan.
I couldn't exist here. I would stay here today hidden away from human eyes
until I thought of something. I didn't need sleep now, I was wide awake and
alert. I felt power running through my veins and I liked it very much. I knew I
should go home and talk to my family, but I couldn't. They should not be
harmed, it wasn't right. There were plenty of humans to feed on here in the
city of Vancouver. I knew Edward had tried to follow me. I could smell his
scent as he chased me into the woods to the border. He cried out in pain "Bella!" Over and over again.
Somehow I managed to
evade him. I still haven't worked that one out either. He had eighty years’
experience over me, how had I managed to escape him? I did not know the answers
to the questions I posed myself as I sat all alone in the abandoned house. Soon
night would be here. Soon I would need to feed once again.
Bella Cullen nee Swan, newborn vampire, ruthless killer,
feeder of human blood. This was my new life, whether I liked it or not.
CHAPTER FOUR
FASCINATION
ETIENNE LUCIER:
My name is Etienne. My family emigrated to Canada from
France in 1620. I was eighteen years old and excited to be in a vast new
country. It is now 2008 and I have been on this earth for 406 years. Eighteen
of those years was spent as a human. The long years since then spent as an
Immortal.
Yes, I am a vampire. Perhaps one of the oldest ones to live
in Canada. I do not know for sure as I do not seek out vampire company. I
prefer to run solo. It's easier that way, trust me. If a vampire crossed my
path I observed the creature from a distance and soon decided that they were no
threat to me. I enjoyed my life in the old quarter of Vancouver. I liked this
city; it was ethnically diverse so I found it easy to blend in. My family
originally settled in Quebec, where Montreal was now situated. My ancestors
lived there to this day and the name Lucier was not uncommon in Montreal. My Father had been a merchant. Life had been
hard in those early days of French colonization. Many settlers died early,
because of harsh weather and diseases. In 1630, there were only 103 colonists
living in the settlement, but by 1640, the population had reached 355. That
didn't affect me though for obvious reasons.
I was changed into a vampire against my will. I was lured up
a dark alleyway after a night of debauched drinking as I celebrated being a
French-Canadian. She was beautiful, so beautiful. Her hair was a curly mass of
auburn, her face so pale and perfect, and her red eyes boring into mine with
such intensity. I felt light-headed and feverish when she gazed deep into my
soul, her cool lips touching mine as she kissed me passionately. I succumbed
easily. Whilst I was in a drunken state of ecstasy and bliss she bit me. As my
life slipped away I felt her carry me to somewhere safe and warm. I spent what
seemed like weeks in a fever, my skin burned from the inside out. It was hell.
Then I awoke to this life. I was amazed at my new found strength. I was amazed
by the minute detail of the world around me. It wasn't all bad. Except I
couldn't ever go home.
I stayed with my maker for 100 years. I didn't know what
else to do. But I found her to be sadistic and cruel and I could not stomach it
any longer. I suspected she wanted to keep me with her always, as a pet, as a
lover, as a companion? I don't know for sure, but I was glad to be on my own
and I swore I would not let anyone else get that close to me again. I ignored
the other vampires who crossed my path. I didn't let myself become attracted or
attached to anyone, whether human or Immortal.
It was easier to be alone.
That was until last night ...When I saw her. A
beautiful vampire, but so obviously a newborn. I could tell by the way she
carelessly killed innocent humans who happened to cross her path. It was sloppy
to say the least. I was fascinated by her. She was stunning. She was wild and
free. I remembered being that way at first; my maker had encouraged me to be
like that. The wilder and more vicious the better. I gazed down from the bridge
into the river below, the full moon reflected in the dark water. I thought
about the vampire girl from last night and wondered what her name was. Dare I
follow her again tonight? It shouldn't be too hard to find her. Not with my
sharp well-honed senses.
I briefly let my maker cross my mind for a second. Sometimes
I remembered her with fondness, other times I hated her with a passion. Usually
the latter won. I had spotted her a few times in the long years I'd been away
from her. But I'd always avoided her like the plague. She was easy to spot with
her shocking red hair.
"Ah Victoria, " I thought to myself
with a wry smile.
Tonight I would find the dazzling vampire and watch her.
This was such a new feeling...to be fascinated. I felt happier than I had in a
hundred years.
CHAPTER FIVE
DISCOVERED
BELLA CULLEN:
I caught sight of my reflection in a puddle after my third
kill of the night. My mouth was stained with blood and my red eyes were wild
and ferocious. I gasped aloud at my reflection and quickly stood up in disgust.
I gazed at the body slumped on the path and felt truly disgusted at myself. I
dragged the man's body away into the bushes before anyone unsuspectingly
stumbled across it. The horror, the sheer horror gripped me and I howled with
shame and sorrow. This poor man probably had a wife and family, now I had
reduced him to just another victim of this insatiable blood lust. I sped
quickly away from the scene, the blood giving me extra speed and strength. My
body felt glorious, like a well-tuned machine, but my mind and soul – if I
still possessed one – felt soiled. I hated what I had become.
I missed Edward so much, my now still heart ached for him but
I felt disconnected from that life. I knew he would be going out of his mind
with worry and wondering why he couldn't track me. I wondered myself why he
hadn't come. Of course if he did I would hide from him. I couldn't let him take
me home; I didn't want anyone to see me like this. Even though I knew my family
would try and help me; I couldn't take the risk.
I stopped suddenly on the bridge. I could feel a presence;
watching, waiting. I looked behind through my new eyes but could not see
anyone. This feeling wasn't new; I had felt this before on previous night's
hunting trips. I walked slowly back towards the old abandoned house, the
feeling of being followed was intense and I felt scared even though I knew I
was the scary one. I entered the dark house and went to the large windows at
the front to gaze out into the night. No one was out there. I felt tired though
I no longer needed sleep. I was weary from this life of killing and craving
blood. I didn't know how to stop. It had been three weeks now and every night I
had to feed. I tried not to, but I became restless, weak and hungry. It was
hell. Never ending and relentless.
I went upstairs to the room which I had made mine. It was
dark and dusty, but had the most beautiful ornate four poster bed which dominated
the room. I lay down with a sigh as I wondered who had slept in this bed. Who
had owned this house which had once been magnificent? I let my mind wander back
to when I had been human. I thought of Edward and our daughter. A daughter whom
I could not see. I felt horror and disgust when I thought of how close I had
come to killing her. Suddenly my thoughts were interrupted by the feeling of
not being alone again. I sat up quickly and scanned the dark shadows. I gasped
aloud as I saw the door opening and a tall figure entering the room. I swiftly
got to my feet and crouched down defensively a low snarl issuing forth from my
lips.
"I mean you no harm," a deep voice spoke from the
darkness. "My name is Etienne, pleased to meet you," the figure said
as it approached me.
My red eyes took in the tall slim form of a very handsome
pale marble face, with deep topaz eyes and rose red full lips. His hair was
shoulder length dark curls and he wore a long black raincoat. Obviously a
vampire. Obviously very dazzling and gorgeous.
"Please, don't be afraid," he spoke quietly as he
offered me his hand.
His hands were perfectly formed with neatly trimmed nails
which were very pink, almost as if he wore nail varnish. I stood up slowly, my
senses still on red alert. I looked at him with a defiant glare; why was he
here? His face was beautiful and he smiled widely at me revealing his perfect
white teeth.
“I’m sorry to arrive unannounced. I am ashamed to say I have
been watching you for two weeks now. Tonight I decided to make myself known to
you. I hope I didn't frighten you, young one," he said softly.
His voice was so musical and calming. I shyly extended my
hand which he took in his grasping mine firmly. His skin was even colder than
my own.
"I'm Bella
Cullen," I said my eyes meeting his.
"Pleased to meet you Ms Cullen," he said sweetly
with a bow.
So old fashioned!
"Actually it is Mrs Cullen," I corrected him.
"Ah of course.
One so beautiful must be taken," he exclaimed bringing my hand up to his
lips.
"So, you have been following me?” I asked my eyes
narrowing.
He smiled at me, a quite irresistible smile, if I hadn't
already been used to such beauty and perfection I think I would have been
swooning.
"I do apologize for that Bella. You fascinate me. I
have not observed a newborn such as yourself for a while. How long have you
been an Immortal?"
He guided me towards the bed where we sat down together.
Actually I was pleased to have some company, it was quite nice.
"Three weeks,"
I answered, looking down at the dusty floorboards.
"Ah! Yes, makes sense," he observed.
"How old are you Etienne? You seem very old fashioned."
I replied with an observation of my own.
He gifted me with one of his dazzling smiles. "Well I'm
eighteen Bella. I have been eighteen for a while though," he chuckled his
topaz eyes shining.
I smiled back, unable to resist. "We are the same age
then. But tell me Etienne, how long have you been eighteen?"
His dark topaz eyes
gazed deep into mine, “I was changed in 1620 Bella. My family and I had just emigrated
from France to start a brand new life. I didn't expect my new life would
involve becoming a vampire. My poor parents thought I'd run away or been
murdered. I never saw them again," he said his voice tinged with sadness
and regret.
I squeezed his hand,
thoughts of my family flooding my mind. "So you didn't want to be changed
then?" I asked.
He looked at me
incredulously, his perfect eyebrows raised in an arch. “Of course not! My dear
Bella who would want to be changed? I've got used to this life
now and yes I quite enjoy Immortality. But it is lonely at times. I try to
avoid other vampires. I wouldn't want to meet anyone like my maker. Are you
telling me you wanted to be a vampire?" He asked.
I gazed into his eyes
defiantly, "Yes I did. I couldn't bear to get older whilst my husband
stayed seventeen and beautiful. I love him so much it was the only option. We
weren't going to do it so soon, but I was on the brink of death as I gave birth
to our daughter. Edward had no choice. He had to change me there and then,"
I admitted to this beautiful stranger.
He gasped loudly, his pale marble face full of shock.
"Oh mercy! Bella! You had a relationship with a vampire whilst you were
human? Astounding! And you married him and had a baby? I cannot believe this!
Humans shouldn't know about us let alone marry us!" He said gazing at me
with amazement.
I sighed, “I fell in
love Etienne. I found out what he was, but I wasn't frightened. I fell
irrevocably in love with him. I wanted to be like him so much, so we could be
together. He didn't want to change me. He wanted me to stay human, but we came
to an agreement. I agreed to marry him if he agreed to change me himself. I got
pregnant on our honeymoon. No one thought it possible, but it happened, “I
sighed wistfully, thinking once again of home.
Now it was Etienne's
turn to squeeze my cold hand. "Bella, you poor darling. So you had a
vampire child?" He asked softly.
"I don't know!"
I wailed. If I could have cried my face
would have been wet with tears. "The only glimpse I had of my daughter was
as I tried to snatch her out of her basket to feed on her," I shamefully
admitted.
Etienne looked at me
with such kindness and concern I was overwhelmed by it.
"I also attacked
my best friend and for all I know he could be dead. I didn't care at the time,
but lately everything has been bothering me. I'm scared to go home. I live with
a coven Etienne, I have support. But I am frightened of what consequences I
will bring to my family if I stay there. I fled at first in hunger and blood
lust, now I stay away because I'm scared of what I will do, what it will mean
for them!"
Etienne put his arm around me and we just sat in silence for
a while. I was dying to ask him a question though and I could not wait anymore.
"Etienne, who was your maker?" I asked quietly.
I felt him sigh
deeply and in his deep voice he replied, “The fiery haired demon that goes by
the name of Victoria."
My head shot up as I
looked into his eyes the shock on my face evident.
"Victoria!" I uttered my voice breaking.
Victoria!
CHAPTER SIX
DECISIONS
JACOB BLACK:
Thanks to the good doc Carlisle I had recovered after Bella
bit me. That bite was agony, the venom burned in my veins and I passed out from
the pain. I was shocked to the core that she had attacked me. Even more so that
she had first tried to attack Renesmee. I couldn't let that happen, no way. The
first time I saw Renesmee's perfect angelic face my whole world changed in that
instant. I was bound to her in inexplicable ways. I imprinted on
her. Who would have thought that the one would be Bella's
daughter? I certainly didn't. As soon as I heard that Bella had been changed
because the monster baby had ripped its way out of her body, effectively ending
her human life; I was in a rage so intense I was determined to kill the demon
child. That all changed as soon as I looked into her chocolate brown eyes. Now
all I wanted to do was to love her, care for her and protect her. Not that easy
considering her Father was incensed at the thought of me imprinting on his
daughter. But I think Edward could see that I was willing to lay down my life
for her; I'd proved that by trying to stop Bella. I didn't think twice when I
saw my precious Nessie was threatened by her own Mother.
Bella hadn't gone through the change well. She was a red
eyed vicious new born, with a blood lust so terrible she wanted to hurt her
daughter and best friend. What did Edward expect? Bella to be some perfect
newborn vampire? I hated the fact she was out there killing people, all by
herself, lost and confused. But a small part of me was glad that she still
existed. I loved her. Yes, I still loved her, but now my feelings were strictly
friendship. Thanks to Nessie. I rubbed the crescent shaped scar on my neck and
hoped that Bella was okay. I prayed she would return home soon. Edward was out
of his mind with worry and so heartbroken. Of course he blamed himself, though
no one else did. We all wanted Bella around. For her to die was unthinkable.
Now she never would. I still couldn't totally accept my best friend was no
longer human; but as I touched my scar I realized that was so stupid of me. I'd
had first-hand experience of her new life.
I walked back into the house from the Cullen's garden. I had
been outside talking to Seth and Leah in wolf form. I had to tell them the
truth. They could read my thoughts anyway so I couldn't hide it. I hoped Sam
was still unable to read our thoughts. Since we'd separated from the main pack
it seemed they could no longer do this. I hoped that was still true as I know
Sam would be over here in an instant to see if the truce had been broken. Of
course he would say it definitely had as I had the scar to prove it. The
Clearwater's and I had both agreed to keep the situation quiet. Leah and Seth
were shocked to find out about my imprinting on Nessie. I thought they took it
quite well, though they did mercilessly tease me about being a bloodsucker
lover now. Not strictly true; Nessie is actually half vampire- half human. At
first she drank the human blood that Carlisle had; then Edward filled her
bottle with animal blood to wean her off the human stuff. I guess that was a
good thing. Nessie was growing so quickly, she was already the size of a one
year old after only three weeks. She ate tiny morsels of raw chicken and rare steak
along with her blood, but she definitely preferred the latter!
I made a beeline for her Moses basket where she lay
sleeping, her long eyelashes curling onto her soft cheek like fragile butterfly
wings. I gently stroked her cheek and whispered sweet nothings to her as she
slept.
"Hey dog! The meeting is about to start in the drawing
room. You'd better hurry up!" Rosalie ordered in a harsh tone from behind
me.
I spun round to glare
at her defiantly, “Hey Blondie! What do you call a blonde with half a brain?
Gifted! “I crowed triumphantly.
She shot me a look of pure evil and flounced out of the
room, muttering to herself something that sounded like "I wish Bella HAD
killed you dog!"
Tough luck Blondie I thought to myself with a smirk as I
followed her out of the room. The whole family was gathered in the drawing
room, their faces drawn and sad. Alice looked just as bad as Edward did. I took
a seat next to Alice, and was pleasantly surprised when she didn't move away. I
was getting used to their smell, maybe they were getting used to mine too. I
practically lived here.
Carlisle stood up to address everyone, "So despite
numerous searches from everyone we've uncovered zilch. Bella has disappeared
and left no trace, which I know we'll all agree is most strange. A newborn
would not be so good at covering up their tracks. I am puzzled why this has
occurred. Edward? What are your thoughts son?" He asked softly.
Edward's face was so sad I could hardly bear to look at him.
He stood up and gazed around at us all waiting expectantly, “Well, it's a
mystery. I could only track her as far as the Canadian border then her scent
disappears. I have no explanation, except it's Bella, she's stubborn, and she
won't want us to find her!"
Alice stood up as well, “I can't see her
either. It's so strange. I could always see her before. Maybe she is blocking
us in some way?" She said with sadness in her musical voice.
"Maybe," Carlisle said with a nod.
Esme put an arm
around Edward, the worry on her face showing clearly. I guess they all did love
Bella.
I stood up, wanting to have my say, “Guys, I told Leah and
Seth; but I know one hundred percent they won't tell anyone. Obviously Sam's
pack cannot hear our thoughts anymore or he would have been here already. They
would not tolerate Bella returning here if they knew she had bitten me. They
would kill her!" I exclaimed as Edward hissed at me. "Sorry Edward,
but you know it's true. The truce forbids it! Even if I am a shape-shifter!
Anyways, the Clearwater's and I have been taking it in shifts to run around the
border looking for clues any of you might have missed. But so far we've had the
same problem. Bella's scent just disappears, “I said with a resigned shrug.
“We’ve searched in every direction to no avail." I added dejectedly.
"Thanks Jacob," Carlisle smiled. "I think we
should send a search party each night to the main towns. Seattle, Port Angeles,
Spokane and Olympia. Then we can extend our search to Canada. I have alerted
the Denali coven to Bella's disappearance and her state of mind. They will help
in any way they can, “he added.
I looked around the room at the Cullen's. Even Rosalie
looked a little bit sad but in a kind of I told-you-so way. The silence in the
room was palpable, the tension so thick you could slice it with a knife.
Everyone was wondering where Bella was, what she was doing, how she was coping?
Nessie's small cries broke us out of our reverie and I
jumped up instantly, "I'll go!" I exclaimed, dashing out of the room.
I was glad to be distracted from all the sadness and pain. I
picked up Nessie and held her close to me. Her small finger touched my scar,
her eyes screwed up in concentration.
"It's okay
darling. Jake is all healed now," I cooed.
Even though my body
ran at a higher temperature my scar was always ice cold. Weird huh? Nessie put
her small hands to my temples and began to "show" me in her own
special way exactly what she was thinking. She showed me her and I playing pat
a cake, my face smiling at her with so much love, her Father holding her close
sadness in his eyes, Alice dangling brightly coloured beads above her head.
Then she showed me Bella. Her Mother's face was contorted with rage and hunger.
I gasped as she suddenly moved her hands away. Nessie's chocolate brown eyes
were brimming with tears. Her little face was so sad. She didn't understand why
her Mother had left her. I held her tenderly against my chest and spoke words
of love and comfort.
"I promise you sweet Nessie, we will get your Mom
back because we all love and miss her. She didn't mean to hurt me. She wouldn't
have hurt you. She loves you and your Daddy. She WILL come back.
She has to!"
CHAPTER SEVEN
CONFESSION
ETIENNE LUCIER:
I watched Bella Cullen pace up and down the dusty old
floorboards of the master bedroom and couldn't help but be in awe of her
beauty. Even with her red ferocious eyes she was a stunning vision of
loveliness. The poor girl was in torment though. She missed her family, she
missed her husband, she missed her daughter whom she had never held, but most
of all she missed her old life. She wanted to be happy again. She didn't want
to be a vicious killer. If I had been a younger vampire, I would not have been
sitting here. Her newborn rage was quite frightening.
She was now shocked by my revelation. I had answered her
query of whom my maker was, this sent dear Bella into frenzy. Once she calmed
down she revealed that when she was human, Victoria had tried to kill her on
numerous occasions, due to the fact that her husband Edward had killed James. A
mate for a mate. James had previously stalked and tried to kill Bella. She had
almost been turned into a vampire that night, if it hadn't been for Edward
saving her life. She had then taken my hands gently in hers and explained to me
that Victoria was dead. She explained how Victoria had created a new born army
to rise against her and her family, but it had all been in vain and Edward had
dispatched of her.
I was not upset by the news. I had avoided Victoria for over
two hundred years. I was actually glad she didn't exist anymore. Another reason
to like this beautiful creature before me. As if I needed another one. I must
confess I was utterly captivated by Bella. I was already a little bit in love
with her. I hated to see her so upset. Now she was calm I needed to explain a few
snippets of information to her. I'd made a discovery whilst I had been
unknowingly watching her.
"Bella, my dear, please sit down with me. I need to
talk to you," I said with a smile.
She sat down next to me her beautiful face glowing in the
dull lamplight. "What is it Etienne?" She asked.
I took both her cold pale hands in mine as I began to tell
her what I had discovered. "Bella, when I was following you those two
weeks I noticed something unusual. Maybe you know of this strange occurrence,
but I doubt it because you show no signs of knowing," I paused.
"Etienne! Tell me! What is it?" Bella demanded
impatiently, her red eyes glowing.
I gazed deep into
those eyes as I continued, " Sometimes you disappear. You vanish in front
of my eyes. It is utterly strange, but very amusing!" I said with a
chuckle.
Bella's red eyes widened with shock, "I disappear? I
vanish? " She whispered incredulously.
"Poof! And you are gone, my sweet," I replied with
a cautious smile.
Her smooth brow furrowed as she digested what I had said.
"How can that be?" She asked me.
"I have no idea, my dearest Bella. But let me ask you
this. Have other members of your family ever displayed strange abilities?"
She looked at me with a small smile on her face, "Well
yes. Edward can read minds, except mine. Alice has visions of the future. You
think this is my special ability?" She asked with a smile.
"Looks like it Bella! It's strange that you mention
Edward is unable to read your mind. Maybe you have always had this cloak of
invisibility, even as a human?" I asked with raised eyebrows.
Bella pondered over my thoughts for a minute, her face
unmoving, and her eyes unblinking. She was breathtaking. Utterly breathtaking.
"I wonder what triggers it off Etienne. When did I
disappear? What was I doing?"
I sighed as I gazed
into her eyes, " I noticed it happens when you are feeding or feeling
threatened and scared," I replied with a frown.
"Ah," she said with a sad sigh. "So it's
linked directly to my emotions. I can learn to control it though! Oh Etienne! I
could go out in the day if I was invisible! I could go home, make sure everyone
is alright!" They wouldn't need to know I was there!" She said
excitement rising in her voice.
I squeezed her hands, "Bella, my dear I do not advise
going home. Not yet," I said quietly.
She spun away from
me, her temper rising so quickly, "Why NOT?" She roared at me.
Gosh, she was scary,
but wholly desirable and gorgeous at the same time. "Because my dear, your
special gift isn't the ONLY thing we need to get under control now is it, Hmmm?"
I spoke calmly.
Her eyes glittered at me furiously, but then the fight went
out of her and she sat back down beside me on the bed.
"Oh Etienne! You are right! How can I go home? The mere
whiff of a human scent and I would spiral out of control. Who knows what I
would do? Who knows who I would hurt? I cannot be near my daughter when this
uncontrollable thirst comes over me. Edward would stop me getting near her. We
would fight. I am stronger than he is. It would be a disaster!" She
wailed.
I gently stroked her back to calm her. "Bella, do not
despair my dear. I can help you control both your gift and
your thirst," I announced softly.
She whipped her head up and stared into my eyes, "
You...Can... Help...Me?"
I beamed at her with
happiness, "Yes," I answered confidently.
The look on her stunning face was priceless. Hope bloomed in
her like a flower. I would do everything in my power to help my beautiful new
friend. She needed me. I was happy to be here for her. I wasn't completely
unselfish in my act of kindness though. This would mean I got to spend more
time in her presence.
How utterly delicious was that?
CHAPTER EIGHT
LIES
EDWARD CULLEN:
As I sped down the road towards Forks, I couldn't help the
feeling of complete devastation and lonesomeness which engulfed me like a thick
dark cloud. Bella, the love of my existence was still missing. Our searching
had revealed nothing so far, which was so frustrating. I wanted her home with
me. Nessie missed her every day too. I know, because she showed me in her own
special way. My still non beating heart ached for her. I thought of her every
second, there was no respite, no sleep, and no escape. I wondered what she was
doing, where she was, how on earth she was surviving.
I arrived at my destination and knocked on the door. Charlie
Swan's pale and worried face peered out from behind the wooden door.
"Edward! Where is Bella? What happened?" He demanded.
"Please may I
come in Charlie?" I asked politely.
He ushered me into the room and I sat on the sofa, trying
not to look too worried and alone.
"Charlie, remember I told you on the phone that Bella
had contracted some disease whilst we were on honeymoon? Well, her condition is
no better and my Father has moved her to a state of the art hospital in
Washington, where she will receive the best of care. I'm afraid we don't know
how long her recovery will take. The doctors have advised we don't visit as
this tropical disease seems highly contagious and ferocious," I spoke
quietly.
Charlie ran his hands through his thick dark hair in
exasperation, " Well Edward, thanks for letting me know. I can't
understand why you kept her at home so long if this disease is so
aggressive?" He questioned me with raised eyebrows.
I sighed as I began
to tell him another prepared lie, " Carlisle thought he could contain it.
But Bella was getting worse, so we thought it was best to move her to this
private hospital which specializes in tropical diseases. I'm sorry we didn't
consult you first, but we had to move quickly," I said, with what I hoped
was conviction.
" Well what is
the address? Can't I at least write to her? " Charlie asked.
I'd been dreading this question, but I knew it would
inevitably come. So another lie spewed forth from my lips, " The hospital
don't allow mail or phone calls. It's very private and exclusive. My family is
happy to pay all the bills. Please Charlie, we must let Bella recover in peace,
or it may hamper her chances of a full and complete recovery," I stated.
I caught Charlie's confused thoughts as he stared at
me, Is he telling the truth? Oh God, I hope Bella is okay? He seems
genuine, but this situation is so strange! I haven't seen my daughter since I
waved her off on honeymoon!
I stared back at him with what I hoped was a sincere smile.
" I know it's frustrating Charlie, but we all want what's best for Bella,
don't we?" I asked.
Charlie frowned, " Of course!" He stated.
His thoughts flew into my brain in a flurry, Do I
trust Cullen? What else can I do? I hope Bella is alright! What will I tell
Renee if she calls? She will panic!
I smiled again with a large dose of sincerity thrown in for
good measure. I hated to do this to Charlie but it was necessary. I stood up
and walked over to him. I placed my hand on his shoulder and stared deep into
his brown eyes, "Charlie, everything will be fine. We will leave Bella to
recover in her own time. I am her next of kin now. I will deal with the
doctors. I promise to phone them every day for an update. I will call you. You
will not call me. You will not try to contact
Bella. You will believe every word I have told you here today,"
I said softly, my topaz eyes gently persuading and glamorizing him.
He slowly nodded his head and stared back at me, his
expression blank. I looked away as I removed my hand from his shoulder, and he
smiled at me a little. Phew! Seems to have worked! Charlie saw
me to the door and we shook hands pleasantly as I left. I was sorry for using
vampire glamor on him, but it was necessary. I hoped it would work and he
wouldn't interfere. How could I explain to him what had really happened? There
were no words.
As I drove back towards home, my thoughts once again dwelled
on Bella. I sighed as memories flooded over me. Bella lying in the meadow, wild
flowers surrounding her soft hair like a halo; Bella's human heart pounding a
steady rhythm as I brought my lips softly down on hers; Bella smiles as she
tenderly stroked her pregnant belly; Bella nervously laughs as I sped through
the forest with her clinging to my back. All of these memories were sullied by
the image of her as she awoke to the change. Her wild red eyes, a low snarl
escaping her perfect lips, her hands claw like as she turned on her own
daughter. I sighed and wished I could turn the clock back. Even though I loved
Renesmee completely, part of me wished we had waited until Bella was changed to
give into our desire for each other. But nothing could have stopped us. We were
deeply in love and it had seemed so natural to take her into my arms, and into our
honeymoon bed.
Oh how I wished she were by my side right now. All I
could do was wait and hope. That was easier said than done.
I arrived back home, to find Alice anxiously waiting for me.
"Edward! There has been a development! Come on, the family is waiting!"
She exclaimed excitedly, dragging me into the house quickly.
Oh please let it be good news I silently prayed. Alice's
thoughts were a jumble, I couldn't focus on a coherent thought. I hurriedly
followed her into the house where my family waited. All eyes were on me
as I entered the room.
Eyes full of hope and something I couldn't put my finger
on. I sat down and waited for the news; good or bad I was ready.
CHAPTER NINE
LEARNING
BELLA CULLEN:
I found Etienne to be extremely pleasant company and I was
happy that he had found me. He was surprisingly easy to get along with
considering he was a loner. The last few weeks had passed in a blur as he
taught me how to control both my special gift and my thirst for blood. It turns
out that Mr Lucier's talent is mind control. He could impart a thought to me
without touch. He could make me believe everything was going to be alright. He
confessed that he no longer needed to kill humans to satisfy his thirst. He
convinced me that topaz eyes were so much prettier than red ones! He made the
transition from human blood to animal blood in an ingenious way. He simply
convinced the nurse who worked in the blood bank to give him a large supply of
human blood. He kept this in his freezer at home and simply defrosted it and
heated to body temperature before consuming.
Using this method he weaned himself of human blood. It had
taken him years and years to find a solution. Victoria had encouraged him to
kill humans for food. This went against Etienne's principles and when he
eventually broke free of Victoria he found out he had a special gift for mind
control and also that he could avoid killing innocent people.
I was now living with Etienne in his large modern house in
central Vancouver. It was a stark contrast to his appearance and manner. He
still retained his old fashioned look and accent. His French tinged voice was
most appealing, as was his old worldly dress sense. His house was lovely, it
reminded me of my home back in Forks. This often made me sad and I would have black
moods, where I could easily leave Etienne and go on a vast murdering spree. He
calmed me with words and his gift. The anger and rage which used to easily
spread through me like a fire were now subsiding. I found I could stand to
drink the re-heated human blood from the little bags Etienne brought me. It
wasn't so bad and at least no one had died for the sole purpose of quenching my
all-consuming thirst.
Etienne would take me on hunting trips into the Vancouver
mountains, where I found I had something in common with my husband. Mountain
lions were my favourite! Etienne told me that soon I would no longer need to
rely on the human blood bags. I hoped that was true. I longed to be a complete
vegetarian vampire, like my family. I was determined. I needed to do this so I
could return to Edward. So I could be around my daughter. It consumed me. Etienne
could not control my mind when I used my own special gift. Now, I could turn my
invisibility on and off with ease. I found all I had to do was imagine myself
invisible and I was. It still scared me slightly though and I was hesitant to
use it. Etienne took me out in the daytime when it was overcast. He checked the
weather religiously on the Internet every day. I wore dark glasses when we went
out, but I still felt conspicuous and people stared at me. Etienne ensured me
it was because I was so beautiful. Indeed I did get a shock the first time I
saw myself properly in a full length mirror. I was spectacular as a vampire. My
hair was lustrous and shiny, my skin was pale and luminous, my eyes, although
red, shone with an inner light. My whole being was luminous and bright. I
wished Edward could see me.
Etienne's house had a library with an enormous amount of
books, I loved reading the old classics deep into the small hours. He had a
very expensive and technical surround sound cinema system with a large 50"
screen on which we watched old films. Etienne may have been from the 17th
century but he loved all the up to date gadgets this century had to offer. His
delight in old classic films was a joy to see. He adored the times we spent on
the large leather sofa watching films all night. I didn't even miss the human
pleasure of sleeping. I had always suffered nightmares in my human life, I
didn't miss them now. Etienne kept my mind of my worries and fears. He made it
easier when I missed home. I knew he was most probably using his mind control
power on me, but I didn't mind. I was surprised how well we got along. I
wondered why Etienne didn't crave the membership of a coven. I hoped he would
come to the Cullen's with me once I was ready.
I was determined that would happen soon. I hoped Edward
would accept Etienne was special to me. I did not want him to be jealous, but I
knew from past experience he most likely would be. I missed my husband so much.
I often sat in a dreamlike state and imagined I could hear his voice, feel his
lips on mine as my hands ran through his bronzed hair. Not being near him was
torture, the absence of his presence tortured me. I needed to see him soon. So
much. That was why I did what I did. I waited until Etienne had gone
out to pick up a new book for his collection. I took some of the rose scented
writing paper and an ink pen from his oak stationary desk and I began to
compose a letter to my darling Edward.
"Dearest Edward,
I am so sorry for my absence, but you must know it is for
the best. I am learning to control my thirst and every day I grow stronger in
resisting the blood lust. Only today I realized I had not fed in 24 hours and I
still felt good. The urge is waning and very soon I will be in complete control
of my actions.
I have not done this alone. I luckily met another
vampire. His name is Etienne Lucier and he is over 400 years old! Although he
is still eighteen in human terms.. I could not have progressed this far without
him and I hope one day soon you can meet him. I have discovered with Etienne's
help that I have a special gift like you and Alice have. My gift is
invisibility! I did not realize at first that I possessed this gift, until I met
Etienne.
He has helped me train my talent as well as helping me
overcome the need to kill humans. I feel so ashamed that I did this Edward. I
know I was only displaying typical newborn behaviour, but still I feel sick to
my stomach when I think of the innocent people I killed. I am sure you
understand. You always told me you didn't want to be a monster. Well neither do
I.
I have been using donated human blood which Etienne
picked up from the blood bank. But recently I have hardly needed this at all as
we have been hunting in the mountains. My appetite for mountain lion is vast! I
can just imagine you smiling at that. When I think of your smile my still heart
wants to break in two. I miss you so much. I love you, my dearest husband. My
Edward.
How is our daughter? Is she normal? I think about her
every day. I remember what it was like to feel her inside me. She knew me, I
knew her. It makes the separation even more unbearable. I am so sorry for what
I tried to do to her. This is why I have not returned. I was frightened for our
baby. Oh Edward! I hope she is doing fine and is too young to understand this.
And Jacob? My dear friend? Please tell me he is alright. I have been out of my
mind worrying over him. I hardly dare ask, did I kill him? Oh please darling, you
must write back to me and tell me everything is fine!
When I first opened my eyes to this new life, I did not
have a shred of human emotion left, but with Etienne's help I have regained my
feelings. Sometimes my emotions overwhelm me and I cannot stand it. I want to
run as fast as I can back to Forks, back to you and our daughter. You and I
both must hold our patience for a little time longer my darling. I won't return
until I am sure I am in control. I am hoping and praying that won't be long. I
know you told me it can take years for newborn tendencies to wear off. Maybe
that would have been me. Without Etienne I am sure it would have.
Please Edward, do not fret. I love you for eternity. This
is what I wanted, so please do not let guilt consume you my love. My only love.
I will never regret one minute of each and every day since you came into my
life.
I have enclosed a PO box number for you to reply to. I
cannot risk you coming to find me. I will come home when the time is right.
Please let me know everyone is ok and tell them I love them. I dread to think
what is going through Charlie's mind. Are you still sticking with the tropical
disease story? It's all so complicated! We will have to work out what we will
do when I return. My god! Charlie is a grandfather and he doesn't even know.
Thank you so much for naming our daughter Renesmee, it's perfect. I bet she is
beautiful. I do not remember her features, unfortunately I only remember the
beating heart, the blood running through her veins. Maybe you could send a
photograph?
I must sign off now, my love. Just know that I miss you
every day and night. I cannot wait to be in your arms again. My love for you
has not changed, it remains the same.
Yours always,
Bella
I gently kissed the letter and put it into a white envelope.
I rummaged around in the stationary desk drawer until I found some stamps. I
grabbed my dark glasses and hurried out of the house to the mailbox on the
corner of the street. I hesitated briefly. Was I doing the right thing? I
decided yes and I dropped the letter into the box and quickly hurried back up
the street and into the house. As I closed the heavy door behind me I smiled a
secret smile to myself.
Hopefully I would soon hear from my beloved. That was
exactly what I needed right now. I needed to know Edward still loved me. That
our dazzling love had survived this. I closed my eyes and prayed it had.
CHAPTER TEN
MIXED EMOTIONS
EDWARD CULLEN:
Alice handed me the letter which bore Bella's handwriting.
The whole family plus Jacob stared at me with expectant eyes.
"Oh!" I
stated with happy surprise. I felt joy
flood my still heart at the sight of the address written in Bella's scrawl.
"Open it Edward, we're dying of anticipation
here!" Exclaimed Jacob with a wide grin.
I carefully opened the
envelope and slid the letter into my hand. A bouquet of roses assailed my
nostrils, mixed in with Bella's unmistakable scent which was now greatly
enhanced due to the change. As I read her words I felt a mixture of joy, pain
and sadness. Joy that she was coping, pain that she wasn't coming home and
sadness that another vampire, not me, was with her. I sighed deeply and ran my
hand through my hair. I looked up into the eyes of my family. Alice came to
stand by my side, her small hand on my shoulder. She was thinking how sorry she
was for not being able to see what had been happening clearly. I smiled weakly
at her to let her know I was alright.
"Bella is okay. She isn't coming home yet. But she is
coping. She has met another vampire, who is helping her. His name is Etienne
Lucier. She has a special gift, like I do. Like Alice and Jasper, except Bella
can make herself invisible! She sends her love to everyone," I stated.
"Wow! Bella can go invisible!" Jacob said
incredulously.
Nessie giggled and gazed up at his face with joy.
"Have you heard
of this vampire, Carlisle? Bella said he is over 400 years old?" I asked.
Carlisle shook his head, "No, son, I haven't. I hope he
really is helping Bella. Vampires are not usually known for their selflessness,"
he mused.
"Well I think
it's good news!" Stated Esme with a smile.
"Me too,"
added Jasper.
Rosalie and Emmett both nodded in agreement, but Alice just
stared at me with sad eyes.
"Alice?" I questioned.
She shook her head, her pale face full of sadness, "This
Etienne may not be her Saviour! Oh Edward! I cannot see them clearly, but I did
have a brief vision of Etienne acting most inappropriately!"
I grimaced and nodded
my head. "Thanks Alice. You have just helped me make up my mind! I'm going
to fetch Bella and bring her home! If this other vampire can help her then we
certainly can! We're her family and we love her!" I exclaimed
passionately.
Jealousy boiled up
inside my chest when I thought of Bella with Etienne. I wanted to help her, be
the one who was there for her, not some stranger! She may not have left an
address except for the PO box number, but I would search the whole of Vancouver
if I had to! If she really didn't want to see me she wouldn't have let me know
whereabouts she was living. My heart ached for her.
I caught Jake's thoughts as he kissed the top of Nessie's
head. Edward looks so lost. If he brings Bella back and she harms
Nessie, I will HAVE to tell Sam and the others!
I growled in his direction.
He quickly looked up, startled by my utterance. Calm
down Edward! You know I'd do anything for Nessie!
My eyes bored into his until he looked away with a sigh of
exasperation.
"I'm coming with
you!" Alice announced.
I smiled at her as
she took my hand. Jasper nodded in agreement. Jacob looked like he wanted to
say something, but thought better of it. We talked for another thirty minutes
as we made plans for Bella's return. Alice and I would bring her back as soon
as we found her. Carlisle would obtain more blood bags from the hospital just
in case. Jacob would take Renesmee away with him until we were sure Bella was
alright. I just wanted her home with me, where she should be. We decided I
would leave in the morning. Carlisle was going to ask around, see if anyone had
heard of Etienne Lucier. I was dying to escape, to be on my own, to re-read
every word of Bella's letter.
Finally the meeting was over and I was alone. I was so happy
to hear she still felt the same way about me, that she seemed to be like the
old Bella again. Though she couldn't be could she? She was now a vampire. I
couldn't wait to see her again and take her in my arms. I ached for her. I
decided I would write to her, but I would not reveal my plans. She might flee
if she knew I was coming to Vancouver. I took some writing paper and a pen from
my Father's study and sat down to compose a letter to my beloved.
Dearest Bella,
I was so happy to receive a letter from you. I needed to
know you were alright. I have been worried sick about you! I miss you so much
my love, so even just a few words from you can bring joy to my still heart.
I am glad you are starting to overcome the curses a
newborn has to face, I told you it wouldn't be easy to go through the change. I
am glad you are not alone. But Bella, love, what do you REALLY know about Etienne?
Are you sure he has your best interests at heart? I do hope so. You are
everything to me.
Everyone sends their love. They all miss you
tremendously. Jacob is amazed by your new talent! Yes, Bella, your best friend
is just fine. Still as annoying as ever! Carlisle managed to suck out the venom
from his neck. He has a scar, but naturally he is fine. Renesmee is just
perfect my love. She looks so like you. She has your beautiful chocolate brown
eyes. She is so clever, she can "show" you what she is thinking and
feeling by touch only. She misses you. She tells me every day in her special
way. Don't be alarmed, my darling, but she is growing faster than a human baby.
Carlisle is keeping an eye on her though. I adore her. She is a product of our
immense love. I'm so sorry for the way I acted before she was born. My only
concern was for you. Now she is here, our daughter, I love her totally and
completely. I hope you like the photograph I have enclosed for you.
I hope you are sitting down Bella, I need to explain
something to you. Jacob has imprinted on Renesmee. I'm not completely happy
about it but it's happened and there isn't much I can do! But in his defense,
he is completely amazing with her. She dotes on him too.
I hope you come home to me soon, Bella. I miss you so
badly, my heart hurts with the pain of your absence. We can work all this out
my love. Please try to come home soon.
I love you Mrs Cullen. My heart is yours for all
eternity.
Always,
Your Edward
I sighed as I put the letter into an envelope. I knew it was
a low down trick telling Bella about Jacob imprinting on our daughter, but I
hoped it would ignite her newborn rage and bring her flying back into my arms.
Nevertheless, tomorrow I was heading to Vancouver to comb every inch of the
city for my one true love, my wife, my reason for existing. I closed my eyes
and prayed.
Please Bella, come home to me safe and sound. I love you
my darling. Can you hear me? Bella can you hear me? I need you so much. Come
back and make my heart whole again, without you it is shattered into tiny
pieces.
Make me whole again, Bella. I beg of you.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
FIRST TIME
ETIENNE LUCIER:
When Victoria first changed me, she expected me to fall
completely under her spell. I did a little, maybe for the first few months. But
I soon realized that she was an awful monster, all shreds of humanity had left
her long ago. She was old, I knew that, but quite how old was something she
never revealed. Obviously when you are new to this life, your maker is your
whole universe, but I cannot say I was ever in love with Victoria. I was more
scared than anything else! She was beautiful yes; but only on the outside. A
pretty shell, disguising a soulless deep pit of anger and viciousness.
I discovered my talent of mind control by accident. I had
had enough of Victoria luring innocent victims back to our old country mansion
on the outskirts of New Orleans. She found torturing them was an acute
pleasure. Killing them slowly was a divine treat. It was all about HER and what
she wanted. To my shame I went along with her sick games at first. I didn't
know what else to do. The last time she ever commanded me to do something evil
to a poor defenseless young girl, a light went off in my brain and I hardened
my thoughts to Victoria's demands.
I sent out thought waves from my head straight into her evil
mind. I commanded her to stop torturing the young victim and to back away.
Amazingly my thoughts became real and she did indeed back away. I laughed with
glee. I then commanded her to go into the damp dark cellar and lock herself in.
Surprisingly she did exactly that. How fabulous! I untied the young girl, then
took her white scared face in my hands. I gazed intently into her eyes and
directed my thoughts into her mind, You will leave here now. You will
not remember this night. You will forget our faces. You will carry on with your
human life. You will be fine, I promise.
When the girl had left I went down to the cellar and
commanded Victoria to unlock the door with my mind. Her pale scared face
greeted me in the dark cellar. Oh my! The maker was frightened of the
fledgling.
"Etienne I do not know how you did that, but please
refrain from using that vile trick on me ever again!" She bellowed, her
red eyes glinting evilly.
I smiled
triumphantly, "Victoria, my dear. You are purely evil. You are a terrible
creature. I could never love you. In fact I despise you! I am leaving now. I am
going home. Well as near to home as possible. But I do not really have a home
anymore thanks to you! You will not follow me. If you ever see me again you
will walk in the other direction. Do you understand
Victoria?" I asked quietly, but firmly with deadly intention in
my once meek voice.
She nodded at me, her eyes now glinting with fear and
rejection. I didn't care, I simply turned and walked away. Forever. It
was a good feeling. I was free. I wasn't sure why this talent had suddenly
surfaced but I was glad it had. As I sped through the countryside I realized
with pleasure that I would never again be beholden to anyone. Not if I didn't
want to be. I headed swiftly towards the Canadian border with a smile. I would
never be under anyone's spell ever again. That's what I had reckoned anyway.
Until many, many, many years later. The night I saw Bella Cullen, I knew right
there and then that I was captivated by her. For the first time ever, I Etienne
Lucier was in love. Yes, I loved Bella Cullen. I had to let her know. I had to
make her love me too.
That shouldn't be too difficult. Not to a vampire of my caliber.
I had charm on my side. I had trust on my side. And most of all I had the power
of mind control on my side. I hadn't completely unleashed this on sweet Bella
just yet. Maybe a little here and there to calm her and make her feel safe.
Now was the time to let my full power wash over her. She
would be mine, completely mine. I was in love for the first time in my
existence. Completely and irrevocably in love with Bella Cullen.
CHAPTER TWELVE
QUESTIONS
JACOB BLACK:
Almost five minutes after Edward and Alice left for
Vancouver on their quest to bring Bella home, Sam Uley appeared in the Cullen's
garden. He was flanked by Paul and Jared. I hugged Renesmee closer to me as she
sat on my lap. I nodded curtly and said hello. Three pairs of eyes were riveted
on Nessie as she sat sweetly in my arms, her little face full of curiosity for
our visitors.
"So this is the
vampire child Leah spoke of?" Sam asked his dark eyes glittering.
I nodded, my heart
full of anger at Leah's betrayal. "This
is Renesmee Cullen. Bella and Edward's child. Obviously you already know she
was conceived whilst Bella was human. I guess the secret is out. Bella has been
changed. But you are wasting your time; she is not here," I said with
steely determination.
" Leah told us everything Jacob. I guess she is still more
loyal to me than you, " Sam stated.
I flinched at his
words. I truly had believed Leah would keep our secret. I had never doubted her
and Seth's integrity. Stupid me! I was so angry I could have ripped her
head off. But I tried to reign in my temper whilst Sam's pack were watching me
intently.
He smiled at me, "Jacob, I know things haven't been
good between us, but surely you must see Bella and this child are a danger to
Forks and the treaty."
I felt my blood boil up and I could not help angry words
spewing forth from my lips, " Sam, look at this precious child! She
wouldn't hurt you or anyone. We have the situation under control. Bella left.
She didn't take to the change well, but she still had the sense to leave!"
I sputtered angrily.
Nessie looked up at me with concern on her small pretty
face. I didn't see her next action coming or I would have tried to prevent it
at all costs. Nessie's small hand reached up and stroked the crescent shaped
pale scar on the side of my neck, I gasped and pulled her hand away softly. It
was too late though. Sam and the others had noticed; their eyes widened in
shock and revulsion.
"She bit you!" Paul shouted in fury, starting
towards us with menacing fury.
"NO!" I
recoiled, picking Nessie up and holding her closer to me.
"It was Bella. I
thought your little spy would have told you!" I spat out with disgust.
Sam shook his head
and Paul stopped dead in his advance.
"Jacob, this is
serious. If Bella comes back here we must put her on trial. She has broken the
age old treaty between the shifters and vampires. The Cullen's signed it!
" Sam said angrily.
I sighed and ran my hands through my hair as Nessie clung to
me, her small arms clamped tight around my neck. "Sam, please. Edward and
Alice have gone to find Bella. She has been in touch. She is almost cured of
her newborn tendencies. She won't hurt anyone! This happened when she was first
changed! Edward had no choice! She was dying after giving birth to
Renesmee!" I pleaded.
Nessie whimpered at my words and I soothingly stroked her
back. Sam's dark eyes bored into me and I could see there was no way to placate
him. He believed Bella and Nessie were a threat to Forks and there was no way
he would let this lie. I could kill Leah!
"Jacob, as soon
as Bella returns we'll be holding a trial. There is nothing you can say to
change my mind!" He stared defiantly as the three turned and walked away.
" Sam! You know this will cause a war between the pack
and the Cullen's! I will not be on your side! Do you hear me Sam Uley! Nessie is
everything to me! In fact I have imprinted on her! I'm surprised your spy
didn't tell you that!" I shouted after them.
Nessie cooed and stroked my cheek. I smiled down at her
sweet face. Sam stopped but he did not turn around. I could see the tension in
his shoulders, back and clenched fists. After a minute he started walking again
and did not turn around. Paul and Jared were a little ahead of him and they did
not turn around either.
"Oh well
Nessie", I whispered softly against her hair, "Jacob has really gone
and done it now!"
As soon as Nessie went down for her mid-morning nap, I knew
exactly where I was headed. I was going to have this out with Leah, ask her
just what she was playing at!
No one was going to hurt Nessie or Bella as long as I was
here. Just let them try! Just let them try.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
STRANGE ATTRACTION
BELLA CULLEN:
Edward's letter had arrived this morning and I had read it
over and over, his words now imprinted on my heart. The photograph of our
daughter took my breath away. She was gorgeous. I couldn't stop staring at her
luminescent skin, her large chocolate brown eyes, her rose red full smiling
lips and her general air of beauty and intelligence. She appeared to be a two
year old toddler, how could this be? Edward had explained that her growth was
accelerated. This worried me greatly. Would she speed rapidly into a young
child then into a teenager in just the space of a few months? Would she become
an adult very soon and speed towards old age? Would we lose her? It didn't bear
thinking about. Another reason why I needed to get home. Every day I became
stronger and more able to resist the blood lust.
I ached to see Edward. I hated being apart. I wanted to be a
proper Mother to my daughter. I certainly didn't want Jacob Black being there
for her! Though Edward said he was fantastic with her; I still didn't like the
fact he'd imprinted on her! Why did Jacob have to imprint on her? Was he trying
to get back at me for choosing Edward over him? I loved Jacob but this was too
much! Renesmee was Edward's and mine, not HIS! My newborn fury was just slowly
simmering below the surface, ready to explode at any minute. I tried to reason
with myself, to calm myself down. My rage was unpredictable and I couldn't
afford to let it take a hold. In the deeper recesses of my mind, the small
rational part was speaking to me in a calm manner. Jacob cannot help
who he imprints on. It's an involuntary process and completely irreversible.
It's NOT Jake's fault!
Still, it was hard for me to take in that Jacob had
imprinted on my daughter. I wanted her to make up her own mind about who she
fell in love with when she was older. I didn't want the choice forced upon her!
Now her future was already mapped out for her. She must bear Jacob's children
to carry on the shape-shifting gene. I clenched my fists with pent up anger. My
child was entitled to have her own life! Now it had been snatched from her by
Jacob Black! I stood up quickly and whirled around, my fists smashing through
Etienne's oak wood coffee table. Books fell to the floor, their pages spinning
around my feet as if a hurricane had descended. I picked up the ruined books
and ripped them to shreds, paper flying around my head like snowflakes. I
snarled and growled and hissed with fury and frustration.
I felt strong arms encircling my waist. Etienne's soft voice
whispered in my ear. "Bella my love. Calm down. Everything is going to be
alright. You'll see. Now let's sit down for a minute and you can tell me what
brought on this little temper tantrum."
I sagged back into
his embrace, grateful to have him here. We sat on the leather sofa and Etienne
smoothed my hair back from my face.
"Now, sweet Bella, tell me what is wrong?" He
asked, his topaz eyes shining.
"Oh Etienne! I'm so sorry. I broke your table and I've
ruined your books!" I said my voice full of shame and remorse.
He lifted my head up
again so he could look into my eyes. "Bella, I can replace those. Tell me
what the matter is?" He asked softly, his cool breath on my face.
"I received a letter from Edward. He misses me so much.
I'm breaking his heart!" I wailed. Etienne stroked my hand and waited for
me to continue. "Our daughter is perfect, look! I have her photo. Isn't
she beautiful? But she is growing too fast. I'm worried. I should be there. I
need to go home soon. We have to make sure I'm ready! I can use my invisibility
if I have to!" I exclaimed excitedly.
Etienne's cold hands stroked my cheek as he looked deep into
my eyes. " Bella. Dearest Bella. Only I will know when you are ready. You
will trust my judgment and only mine. I know what's best for you," he
softly spoke as his eyes mesmerized me.
I slowly nodded my head in agreement as if I was in a
trance-like state. I felt a calmness wash over me in warm serene waves. I
sighed and put my head on Etienne's shoulder, the spicy scent of him wafting
over me; making me feel safe and protected. I felt his lips brush my hair as he
inhaled me. He softly shivered and put his arm around me drawing our bodies
closer together.
I felt as though I was adrift on a sea of serenity. My
thoughts became hazy and if I was human I think I would have comfortably
drifted off to sleep. Etienne slowly and gently placed me against the large red
velvet cushions, my hair fanning out behind me.
"Bella, your red eyes are less scarlet now. As soon as
we stop giving you the blood bags they will turn topaz like mine, "
Etienne softly said, his finger tracing my cheekbone gently. "You will be
even more beautiful then, my dearest. If that's possible. You are so stunningly
gorgeous Bella Cullen. You are perfection," Etienne whispered, his eyes
deep pools of mystery and desire.
I felt myself falling into those eyes, deeper and deeper.
His fingertip traced the curve of my lips and I felt myself swoon and sigh.
What was happening to me? Etienne was a handsome man, he was good and kind, and
he was my friend and saviour. But right at this moment he looked so dazzling
and beautiful, sensuous and bewitching, tempting and beguiling. I gently took
his hand and kissed the smooth pale skin, as he sighed most deliciously. What
was happening here? I forgot about Edward, Renesmee and home. All I could think
of was Etienne.
His lips came closer to mine until they were only mere
inches away. I sighed with longing and anticipation.
"Kiss me,
Bella," he whispered, his cool breath intoxicating me with his
own special scent.
My lips found his quickly and hungrily. With a magnetic
attraction we devoured each other with our mouths. Fireworks went off in my
head and my knees went weak. If my still heart could beat it would be pounding
now as his hands wound through my hair pulling me closer and closer. I was lost
in his kiss, our hunger for each other growing steadily. I was swept away on a
tidal wave of emotions and pure lust for this beautiful vampire. There was no
holding back, no return from the brink.
I let myself fall completely under his spell as we fell
to the floor amongst the ruined books and splintered oak; our arms wrapped
tightly around each other, our lips locked together in passionate desire.
I lost myself wholly in the moment. Lost myself in him.
I was completely lost...Forever?
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CONFRONTATION
JACOB BLACK:
I had found Leah walking on First Beach in the mid-morning
sunshine. I had roughly grabbed her arm and spun her around to face me. She
struggled to get away from me and avoided my angry blazing dark eyes. I
demanded to know why she had told Sam about Bella and Renesmee.
"Why Leah? Why did you betray me? How could you do this
to Nessie? She's only a child?" I spat out angrily shaking her shoulders.
"Get off me,
Jacob Black!" She demanded.
"No chance Leah.
You and I are going to sort this out right now!" I stated with steely
determination.
I dragged her off to
the rock where Bella and I used to sit in the simpler days when she was a
beautiful human girl whom I'd had a massive crush on.
"Sit!" I commanded Leah and gave her a little
push. She sat down on the rock hard and glared up at me, defiance in her dark
eyes. "Explain yourself miss!" I demanded, my arms folded across my
chest.
"I thought Sam
should know since he would find out anyway. Did you think you could keep this
from him Jacob? Even though you, Seth and I separated from the pack, Sam would
still find out eventually!" She stated.
I narrowed my eyes at her, still full of rage. " We
would have had time to sort stuff out though Leah. Now Sam knows Bella bit me
and you know how he feels about that! He wants to put her on trial as soon as
she returns! In the treaty it states that no member of the Cullen family must bite
a human or otherwise! This will start a war between the Cullen's and the pack!
Did you even consider that Leah?" I shouted in her face.
To my surprise she started to cry. " I didn't consider
anything Jacob Black! Except for one thing! Something I'll never tell YOU! Now
leave me alone!" She sobbed as she got up and began to run down the beach.
"Leah!" I shouted after her as I began to follow.
She was pretty fast
for a girl. But then she was a wolf girl. I caught up with her quickly and
dived on her bringing her to the ground. Her tear stained face looked up into
mine with defiance mixed in with the sadness.
" Tell me Leah! What did you mean?" I asked, more
gently this time.
She bucked and writhed underneath me in her bid to escape. I
loosed my grip on her and she crawled away. I stood up and offered her my hand.
She reluctantly took it and I pulled her up to face me.
"Now, let's just
calm down and talk sensibly shall we Leah?" I asked.
She wiped the tears from her eyes as I stood in front of her
feeling slightly bad for making her cry. Now she looked angry, not sad. Her
dark eyes glittered, her long dark hair was wild and she stood with her hands
on her hips. In her tight denim cut offs and her red cropped gypsy top which
skimmed her bare tanned midriff, she looked quite beautiful. I tried not to be
distracted by this and instead remembered exactly why we were here.
"Please, Leah.
We need to talk," I pleaded softly.
She nodded and gestured for me to sit down on the sand next
to her. For a few minutes we sat and stared at the sea together whilst we both
gathered our thoughts.
"Leah, I'm so worried what will happen to Bella and
Nessie. As you know I've imprinted on Nessie. I'll do anything to protect
her. Anything. Even if that means going against Sam and the
others. I need to know if you and Seth are on my side or theirs. Because that's
what it will come down to Leah. Sides, " I stated calmly, not wishing to
make her mad again.
She sighed as she turned to look at me, "How could you
imprint on a bloodsucker Jacob? You don't even know if she can have
children? It's all upside down! It's not how it is supposed to be!" She
exclaimed, her dark eyes sad.
"Nessie is half human Leah, I'm sure we'll have a
normal relationship when the time is right," I replied.
Her dark eyes were deep pools of mystery as she gazed at me.
"There could have been better choices made Jacob," she said quietly
as she looked at the ground.
I stared at her,
deeply puzzled.
"I am going to tell you this only once Jacob Black. Do not
speak until I have finished," she said quietly still looking at the
ground. "I have feelings for you! I was hoping you would consider a
relationship with me! I was jealous you imprinted on Nessie, that's why I told
Sam! I wanted it to be ME Jacob! I've been avoiding phasing with you for weeks
now so you wouldn't hear my thoughts. It's been torture!"
I gazed at her open mouthed, totally speechless for once.
Leah jumped up and ran her hands through her tangled hair.
"I'm sorry
Jacob! I didn't mean to hurt you! I love you, you stupid jerk!" She sobbed
as she once again took off at high speed down the sand, her long brown legs a
blur.
I shook my head to bring myself out of my stupor. She loves
me? Whaaat? Once again I took off after her.
"Leah! Come back!" I shouted.
She suddenly stopped and turned to face me. I caught up to
her with a smile.
" I didn't know Leah!"
She rolled her eyes at me.
"I can't help
this imprinting thing, you know that as well as I do!" I stated.
Suddenly she leaped at me, knocking me to the ground,
pinning my arms behind my head and bringing her lips down onto mine in a
passionate kiss. She tasted of the sea, the sun and strawberries. Her full lips
crushed down onto mine and I couldn't help but respond. No girl had kissed me
like this since Bella had just before all hell broke loose with Victoria and
the newborn army! Who would have thought Leah had such wild passion in her
soul? Not me. Until now. I prised my hands free and placed them around her
waist, feeling the soft skin there. Her hands were in my hair, twisting it
around her fingers roughly.
She ground her hips down onto me and I moaned involuntarily
with unbridled passion. Her tongue entwined with mine as our kiss became
deeper. She pulled away from me, both of us breathing heavily. Her dark eyes
were full of passion and her lips were shining lusciously from our kiss.
"Something for you to think about Jacob Black!" She
purred as she jumped up and once again took off at full speed up the beach.
This time I didn't follow, but lay on the sand gazing up at
the blue summer sky. My heart was pounding and my blood was burning like fire
in my veins. I felt so good but also so bad. Was this considered cheating in
the world of imprinting or was it fine if the one you have imprinted on was a baby?
In reality, I had years to wait until Nessie was free to love me back. Or did
I? She was growing fast. Leah's kiss had confused me. I had never thought of
her in that way before. But now, especially now, she was a stunning, beautiful
girl who had declared passionate feelings for me. I sat up with my head in my
hands and groaned in frustration.
As if I didn't have enough stuff to deal with! Now Miss
Clearwater had thrown a mighty big spanner in the works! The thing was I had
felt blue sparks of electricity between us, a deeper connection, a passionate
awakening deep inside me.
I guessed I was in deep trouble right?
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CONSCIENCE
ETIENNE LUCER:
As Bella lay beneath me, her red eyes full of passion, I
should have been ecstatic with joy. But I felt terrible! I had manipulated her
thoughts so she desired me. I couldn't do this to her. As much as I desired and
loved this beautiful creature lying beneath me; I did not want her to want me
this way. I sighed and kissed her ruby lips one more time. A soft kiss full of
longing and need. She sighed and responded to me so sweetly it almost broke my
still heart. I silently commanded her to go back to normality as I swiftly
leaped to my feet. I watched, heartbroken, as her face gazed up at me with
shock and disbelief. She jumped up and slapped me hard across the face. I
reeled from her totally deserved blow. She turned to face me, her red eyes
glittering furiously. She had never looked more deliciously beautiful.
"How dare you! I
would never...How did I end up on the floor? You kissed me! I kissed you! We
almost...Etienne! What have you done!"
I held out my arms, my whole being full of shame. "I'm
so sorry Bella. It seems I have fallen in love with you. Desperately in love!
" I exclaimed.
She narrowed her eyes at me suspiciously, "How did you
make me fall under your spell Etienne? I would NEVER be unfaithful to
Edward!" She stated defiantly.
"Dearest Bella,
I am so sorry to say I used my own special talent. You already knew I could
control minds, but you didn't realize quite to what extent! Vampire, human or
animal. It's second nature to me, my love. I wanted you to fall in love with
me. I wanted you. I'm so sorry. I stopped before events went too far. A
thousand apologies Bella," I said meekly.
The fury in her red eyes scared me, and I prepared myself
for the onslaught. I hoped I wouldn't have to use my talent again. I could see
by her face that her clever mind was processing all of this information.
"I thought you
were a friend Etienne. I thought you wanted to help me! You know how much I
love Edward! All I wanted to do was go home to him and my daughter! You had an
ulterior motive all along!" She shrieked at me.
I recoiled from her
anger and her words. "No, Bella! I have always wanted to help you! I couldn't
help falling in love with you. I've never been in love before! I've never let
anyone get so close to me ever! Please forgive me! Say we're still friends, I
beg of you!" I demanded.
Bella's fury hadn't
subsided though and she looked like she may rip my head off. "Etienne, you
have abused my trust in you. How can I believe in you now? You could manipulate
me any time you wanted without warning! Well I cannot let you do that! I have
no choice. I must do this!" She uttered as she completely vanished into thin
air.
"Bella!
No!" I screamed.
I tried to command
her to reappear but to no avail. My power did not work when she was invisible. I
felt a breeze through my hair, then small hands pushing me firmly in the chest.
I fell to the floor, shocked to my core.
"Bella please!
Don't do this!"
I saw two large books
hurtling through the air towards me, they landed on my chest pushing down on
me.
"No Bella! Stop!"
I felt a great pressure crushing me. Bella was jumping up
and down on the huge books, crushing my chest and ribs. If I had still breathed
I knew for certain I would have ceased as the weight crushed my lungs. I still
felt pain though and this was immensely painful.
"Bella, please,"
I wheezed through the pain.
Suddenly the crushing agony was gone. I gasped and held my
hands over my broken ribs. The pain was intense. If I could cry I would cry a
river now. The physical pain was bad enough but the emotional and mental
anguish was so much worse. Bella wanted to hurt me. Sweet Bella! "Bella,
Bella, I'm so sorry!" I whispered hoarsely.
I gasped aloud as I felt a small cold hand caress my cheek
ever so lightly. "Etienne, I could have killed you if I wanted to,
but I spared you because you have, despite everything, helped me. I no longer
need you. I need my family. I am leaving now Etienne. I hope your loneliness
doesn't drive you insane. I was going to take you to Forks with me. You could
have been part of our family. Now you are dead to me! Do you hear me Etienne?
Dead! "
I felt another cool breeze waft over me as the front door
slammed loudly. Bella was gone. All alone into the dark night. I beat my fists
on my crushed chest and wailed with agonizing heartbreak. I wished I was dead.
I could think of no reason to keep existing. Long centuries stretched out in front
of me. Empty and lonely. I had lost the one thing I had ever loved. I pulled
myself up from the floor clutching my shattered ribs. I needed to lie down. I
needed to heal. What was the point though? Nothing could heal my broken heart.
My body would regain its former strength but my heart would forever be
shattered into a million pieces. All through my own stupidity and vanity. I
crawled up the staircase and into my plush bed, pulling the velvet covers up
over my head. I slid the remote control from the bedside table and pressed
play. Sounds of my favourite song filled the room. Never had the words been
more significant. I pressed repeat and lay in the dark alone with my tortured
thoughts. How I wished I could sleep! I could dream of Bella then.
The music washed over me and I felt a sad loneliness so
profound it almost swept me away. The dark is rising.
"I dreamed of you on my farm
I dreamed of you in my arms
But dreams are always wrong
I never dreamed I'd hurt you
I never dreamed I'd lose you
In my dreams, I'm always strong
And now the creek is rising
And all my bridges burned
I always dreamed of big crowds
Plumes of smoke and high clouds
But dreams don't last for long
I have my suspicions
When the stars are in position
All will be revealed
But I know that until then
Unless the stars surrender
All will be concealed
And now the snow is falling
And all my fences torn
I know you needed someone
And I can hear someone
Somewhere in this song
I dreamed that I was walking
And the two of us were talking
Of all lives mysteries
But words that flow between friends
Winding streams, without end
I wanted you to see
But it can seem surprising
When you find yourself alone
And now the dark is rising
And a brand new moon is born
I always dreamed I'd love you
I never dreamed I'd lose you
In my dreams, I'm always strong"
I dreamed of you in my arms
But dreams are always wrong
I never dreamed I'd hurt you
I never dreamed I'd lose you
In my dreams, I'm always strong
And now the creek is rising
And all my bridges burned
I always dreamed of big crowds
Plumes of smoke and high clouds
But dreams don't last for long
I have my suspicions
When the stars are in position
All will be revealed
But I know that until then
Unless the stars surrender
All will be concealed
And now the snow is falling
And all my fences torn
I know you needed someone
And I can hear someone
Somewhere in this song
I dreamed that I was walking
And the two of us were talking
Of all lives mysteries
But words that flow between friends
Winding streams, without end
I wanted you to see
But it can seem surprising
When you find yourself alone
And now the dark is rising
And a brand new moon is born
I always dreamed I'd love you
I never dreamed I'd lose you
In my dreams, I'm always strong"
(Copyright Mercury Rev – the Dark Is Rising)
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
BELLA CULLEN
REUNITED
I flew out of the house and into the street, desperate to be
far away from my traitorous so called friend. I didn't dare make myself visible
again, who knew how far Etienne's power reached? My heart was heavy as I left
the place I'd called home for almost three months. I silently and invisibly
made my way down the wide tree lined avenue, as the moon shone its light down
on the pavement. It was past midnight and the street was quiet. I had to get
home. I knew the general direction which I had to take but I was still scared I
would be lost out here all alone with no one to guide me. As I rounded the
corner a familiar scent greeted me, a scent now magnified multiple times by my
new vampire senses. A scent totally unique and special. Edward.
I gasped with joy and shock. Edward was here? In Vancouver?
I picked up another scent as well as two figures emerged around the next street
corner. Edward was dazzling in the moonlight, Alice by his side. Such beautiful
pale marble creatures, made even more stunning through my vampire eyes. I
stopped abruptly and just stared as they walked gracefully towards me. I
couldn't help myself; I materialized right in front of their shocked topaz
eyes.
"Bella!" Edward gasped as I appeared.
"Wow that's some trick!" Alice stated in awe.
I smiled tentatively
at them both, my senses overloading on the pair. "Hello," I said
quietly.
Edward stepped towards me, his eyes shining with love and
longing. He reached out and pulled me towards him; his strong arms enveloping
me in a loving embrace.
"Oh Bella!" He whispered into my hair.
I breathed in the
intoxicating scent of him and felt the traumas of the past months melt away
instantly.
"Oh Bella, my
love. I have missed you so!" He said with sadness and pain in his voice.
I hugged him tightly to me, his hard marble body my anchor
in the storm. "Edward, you're here. I missed you so much. How did you find
me?" I asked as I gazed up into his eyes.
"Alice's visions became clearer the closer we got to
Vancouver. She saw the street name clear as day! She also saw what Etienne has
done! I will kill him, Bella!" Edward growled.
"No! Please Edward! Despite how he has behaved, Etienne
really has helped me! I was on my way home right this instant!" I
exclaimed, stroking Edward's pale cheek.
Alice's tinkling musical laugh pealed out into the night,
"Bella, from what I can see you have already taken good care of him!"
She trilled as she reached out to give me a welcoming hug.
I hugged her back,
happy to see my sister in law again. But I sighed softly with sadness at my
treatment of Etienne. "Oh Alice, should I go check on him? I was so angry!
I hurt him both physically and mentally!" I exclaimed in anguish.
Edward's sternly shook his head at me, "Bella, my love.
You have nothing to feel bad about!" He stated, his lips
firmly set.
Edward took my hand and began to walk me away from the
direction of the house. I looked back sadly. I hoped Etienne would be alright.
I had to get home now and that was all that really mattered at this moment. I
needed to see my daughter so badly. Edward kissed the top of my head and
squeezed my hand gently. There were so many things unsaid between us. I needed
to explain everything. I could hardly prise my eyes from his face. He was so
beautiful. Dazzling and stunningly gorgeous. I gasped as I felt such powerful
electricity flow between us. Our eyes locked onto each other's; full of desire
and longing. I could not wait to be alone with him.
Suddenly that was
all that mattered.
Alice took my other hand as we began to run swiftly towards
the river, towards the forests and home. "Bella, I really recommend that
you and Edward stay in the cottage tonight. I will explain to the family. We
need to discuss how we will proceed. You seem fine, but I saw what you did to
Etienne. I know you still have the newborn rage deep inside you. We will hunt
on the way home. Tomorrow, you can meet Renesmee," she said with a gentle
smile.
I nodded in agreement. As much as I wanted to be reunited
with my daughter, I wanted to be with Edward more. We flew at high speed in the
direction of home, only stopping when we were deep in the mountains to feed. I
killed two elks whilst Edward watched; his pale marble face filled with
fascination. It was so strange to feed in front of my husband. I felt the heat
and desire within him for me and it gave more fuel to the fire I had deep
inside. I wanted him so badly.
Disaster nearly struck when I came across the scent of two
humans camping in the forest. My throat began to burn with thirst and venom
pooled in my mouth, despite feeling sated on the animal blood. I growled and my
body tensed. Edward swiftly ran back towards me, his hands cupping my face.
"Bella, my love.
Fight it. Fight the thirst my love. You can do it!" He whispered as his
lips found mine.
Another hunger took
over as his cool lips brushed mine. I hungrily devoured his sweet mouth with
mine, all thoughts of human blood gone from my head. This was our first kiss.
Nothing could have prepared me for the intensity of it. Gone was Edward's
gentle kisses, his restrained passion, and his tame embraces. We clung to each
other with fervent abandonment. He broke away first, gasping with joy and
surprise. I gazed into his topaz eyes, filled full of love and desire for me. I
reached out to kiss him again but he gently put a long pale finger to my lips.
"Let's go home
Bella," he whispered with a seductive smile.
I nodded and grabbed
his hand as we flew towards home together.
My still heart soared with joy. We were together again. I
promised myself we would never be parted again.
Never, ever.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
TRUTH
LEAH CLEARWATER:
As I turned back towards Jacob, the tears welled up in my
eyes and I could hold back the flood no longer. His beautiful dark brown eyes
clouded over with sympathy and pity. Two things I'd never wanted from Jacob
Black. I'd wanted his heart. I wanted him to love me back. Now here we were on
First Beach our skin warm and glowing from the fire we'd lit on the beach. He'd
asked to come see me tonight. I couldn't refuse. I had hardly stopped thinking
about him since our passionate encounter a few days ago. Now he was here, but
it wasn't a happy occasion. He told me he was very flattered that I held him in
such high regard. He hadn't expected it, hadn't encouraged it. All this was
true; I hadn't expected to feel this way myself. My feelings for Jacob had
snuck up on me quietly and without warning. I'd known him all my life!
My tears fell silently as Jacob explained why it wasn't a
good idea for us to get involved. He wanted to wait for Renesmee. Even if she
grew up and decided to love someone else. Jacob wanted to keep his heart for
her and her only. Damn this imprinting! Why couldn't he have imprinted on me?
It would have been perfect. Female shape-shifters don't imprint. We have to do
things the normal old-fashioned way. Find a guy to love. Who hopefully will
love us back. I thought I'd found it with Jake. I seriously didn't expect him
to wait for an infant! But that's exactly what he was telling me right now. It
hurt so bad. I knew he'd felt something when I kissed him, it wasn't just
teenage hormones rampaging through our bodies. Was it?
Jacob drew me towards him and enveloped me in his warm arms.
I sighed, hating the moment but loving it so much too. He gently stroked my
back, his touch making me feel warm and secure. "Leah, I think you are
amazing. You know that right? I didn't expect to imprint on anyone, let alone
Renesmee! You know I had that massive crush on Bella?" He asked.
I nodded against his
broad muscular chest.
"Well I think it's the same for you. You have a crush
on me that's all! You'll be fine Leah, I promise. One day you'll see what I
mean. One day when you truly love someone and would give up your life for them!
That's how I feel about Nessie! " He proclaimed with passion.
I gazed up into his
dark eyes and knew he was telling the truth. He loved her, plain and simple. It
did not matter what age she was right at this moment. I could never compete
with that, I saw that now.
I drew away from Jacob and sat back down by the fire. The
sparks from the burning wood flew up and danced into the night sky like
fireflies. Jacob sat down beside me and took my hand in his. I was glad he'd
taken the time to talk to me. He was a nice guy. There was no way he was going
to be mine now. I could live with it, as long as he was still around. I prayed
the Cullen's wouldn't leave. I regretted saying all that stuff to Sam now. Why
couldn't I have kept my big mouth shut? Now I've gotten Jake into trouble as
well as the Cullen's. Sam would love an excuse to start a fight. The pack were
already fuming over the fact that Bella had been changed, despite the
circumstances. I was glad Seth and I were no longer tied to them. As far as I
was concerned Jacob was the rightful Alpha in La Push. I sighed as I laid my
head on his shoulder and gazed up at the dark night sky full of twinkling
stars. Love eh? The songs were right! It is nothing but heartache and pain!
After we had sat together comfortably in companionable
silence for a while, Jacob suddenly spoke. "I did feel something when you
kissed me Leah. You are very beautiful and desirable you know. I think we are
destined to be great friends! I am glad about that," he stated.
"Me too Jacob. I'm not sorry I kissed you! It was
wonderful. You are quite a good kisser you know! But you could be better,"
I replied teasingly.
"Hey!" He said tweaking my hair.
"Cheeky!" I laughed and gazed up into his dark
eyes. "I could help you Jacob Black. Call it a thank you for being so nice
to me tonight," I softly said.
He raised his eyebrows at me curiously. "How?" He
asked.
I smiled up at him,
"I could show you how to make your first kiss with Nessie the most amazing
kiss ever and she will definitely fall head over heels in love with you!"
I explained.
His eyes widened and he smiled, "Come on Leah! You
expect me to believe that! You don't want to help me with Nessie, surely?"
He asked quizzically.
I smiled openly and
honestly at him, "I do want to help you. But there is a selfish reason
too! I get to kiss you one last time! Surely that's not a crime?" I
cheekily asked.
Jacob grinned down at me, his dark eyes shining. "Okay
then, Miss Clearwater. I gotta hand it to you. You are one cheeky
wolf-girl!" He laughed.
I laughed too as I jumped up and held out my hand to him. I
pulled him up to face me and put a finger over his lips to silence him.
"Now listen to me Jacob Black. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity!
After this night, you will be Nessie's forever and I will be your very best
friend forever. I will patiently wait until my Mr Right comes along. And when
he does, boy will he be getting the best chick ever! Me, right? " I
demanded.
Jacob nodded, his
eyes twinkling. "I don't want you to feel sorry for me Jacob! I will be
fine. I'm a professional at this heartbreak thing remember?" I asked. He
nodded again and looked sad. "Don't be sad Jake! We're shape-shifters. We
know what our tribe has to do. Males imprinting is part of that. It didn't
happen to be me you imprinted on. Sam imprinted on Emily. Well that's the past
now. We've got our futures to look forward to. I couldn't come between you and
Nessie, I see that now. I might as well try to freeze hell over than do that.
Imprinting is magical. It's who you are. That's it," I said defiantly and
passionately.
Jake grinned at me, obviously impressed by my little speech.
I was quite impressed myself! "Now time for your one and only
lesson!"
I instructed Jacob to
sweep me into his arms gently but firmly. I told him to gaze directly into my
eyes and gently brush his lips over mine. Then I told him to gently but firmly
tip me over as if I'd swooned in his embrace. Then I instructed him to kiss my
neck gently, move onto my cheek and finally kiss me passionately on the lips. I
told him he must move his mouth in perfect synchronization to mine, letting my
lips dictate the pressure. I told him to kiss me softly and sweetly but firmly.
I told him he must concentrate on my mood exactly. He must be in tune with my
physical and mental state acutely. I demanded that he must not let his passion
overtake mine, he must not get too carried away and become greedy and selfish.
He took all this in with wide eyes, "How did you become
so clever Leah?" He whispered, his lips inches from mine.
"Sam," I
simply stated and tried to put images of my ex-boyfriend and I making out for
hours on end to the back of my mind. It wasn't easy. Sam was my first love.
"Now do it Jacob!" I demanded as he brought his
lips onto mine.
He was a quick learner. It was a perfect kiss. A perfect way
to say goodbye to what might have been. His sweet lips molded themselves to
mine in perfect harmony. Nessie was a lucky girl. Her first kiss would not be
disappointing. I sighed as our lips finally parted and I gazed up into Jacob's
dark eyes, my face flushed and warm.
"Wow," Jake gasped I smiled and
extricated myself from his arms reluctantly.
Now it was done. I
had to move on. Not just this minute though, for now I let myself remember
every exquisite detail.
Jacob smiled at me in
amazement. "Thanks Leah. That was like, amazing! I'm really sorry things
turned out this way. I appreciate your friendship, and you know you can always
count on me no matter what," he stated.
I smiled back, happy
that we'd had this night.
Suddenly my kid brother, Seth, came running down the beach
towards us. "Jacob! Leah! Alice is back! They found Bella! Edward has
taken her to the cottage for the night!" He said breathlessly.
Jake and I glanced worriedly at each other.
"Does Sam know?" I asked Seth. "
My brother looked anxiously at us both, "I don't know.
Maybe. I caught the packs sent all around the house, so they might have seen
Alice return."
Jake and I exchanged another worried glance. "We'll go
to the Cullen's now. See what's happening. Wow! Bella is back!" Jacob
said, his voice full of apprehension and also excitement.
Jacob gave me a serious look. "Leah, you, me and Seth
are going to have to help the Cullen's with this. We can't let Sam punish
Bella! We have to do this for Nessie and her family! Are you both with
me?" He questioned.
Seth and I looked at each other and smiled, "Yes, Jake.
We're with you! Bf f's remember?" I said with a wink.
"Good, that's
all I need to know," Jacob smiled as he led the way back to the Cullen's
house.
I am not the vampire’s biggest fan, but I wanted Jacob to be
happy. I didn't want Sam and the pack to make a war out of this situation. Who
would have thought I'd be on the blood sucker's side huh? Things change. Deal
with it.
This night had been full of strange surprises. I was
absolutely sure there were plenty more to come. That's life. The truth will
always be revealed.
The truth always wins in the end.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
ALONE, AT LAST
EDWARD CULLEN:
As soon as we reached the cottage door I scooped Bella up
into my arms and carried her into our new home. Esme had done a great job on
the place for us. This was to be our family home. I hoped we could put all our
troubles behind us and start our life together here, with our daughter. I tried
to put thoughts of Sam and the Quileute tribe out of my mind. All that mattered
right now was that Bella was here, we were together again. I placed her down
and took her into my arms, my lips hungrily finding hers. Now we could kiss
each other with passion and hunger. Now there was no fear of me hurting her or
killing her with love. Her cool lips enthralled me as we held onto each other
frantically as our mouths met in passionate abandonment. Her scent and taste
enveloped me as we kissed.
I quickly fell under her spell, my vampire senses
overloading on her. We fell to the floor clinging desperately to each other.
Her beautiful face gazed up into mine, her large eyes glowing crimson in the
lamplight. Eyes which were already starting to lose the bright red colour. Eyes
which would soon be topaz, like mine. I grazed my cool lips along the marble
skin of her smooth pale neck causing her to sigh with pleasure. "I love
you Mrs Cullen. Welcome home , my love."
Words were no longer required as we gave ourselves
wholeheartedly to each other. Much later we stood outside, our arms wrapped
around each other as the dawn broke. "Edward, I need to see our daughter,"
Bella whispered against my chest.
" I will take you to her now," I replied, kissing
the top of her head.
The house was quiet, the family must have been out hunting.
We found Renesmee curled up on Alice's knee, contented and half asleep. Alice
smiled up at us, and softly shook Nessie to wake her up. My daughter's
beautiful chocolate eyes opened and immediately focused on Bella. Her face lit
up and she held out her small arms to her Mother at once. Bella looked at me in
wonder and smiled, "This beautiful creature is our daughter?" She
asked incredulously. I nodded, smiling.
Bella walked slowly towards Nessie as Alice shot me a
worried look. Edward! Is this safe? Alice asked in her mind. I
nodded and smiled confidently. I knew Bella would rather cease
to exist now than harm her daughter. Bella gently scooped Renesmee into her
arms and held her close. A lump came to my throat as I watched their reunion.
"Sweet daughter,
I am so sorry I left you. I had no choice darling. I am here now though and I
will never leave you again!" Bella promised.
Renesmee put one small hand to her mother’s temple and showed Bella
her special talent. I watched with glee as Bella's beautiful face lit up with
joy and wonder and then sadness. "Oh Edward! I have put you through
hell!" She wailed as I enveloped my little family in my arms.
Alice discreetly left the room.
We spent an enjoyable morning together, talking, laughing
and playing with Renesmee. " I cannot believe how perfect she is
Edward!" Bella gushed. Her face darkened briefly with anger, "But
wait until I see Jacob Black! How dare he imprint on our daughter!" She
raged.
"Now Bella love,
you know it is involuntary! Don't be too hard on him. He really is good with
Nessie and she adores him!" I stated.
"Nessie?"
Bella asked with raised eyebrows.
I laughed, "She
loves her nickname!"
"Hmm,"
Bella replied unconvinced.
Nessie giggled and twirled a lock of Bella's hair around her
little chubby fingers. Bella gazed at her, completely captivated. I explained
to my worried wife about Nessie's growth spurts and how Carlisle was keeping an
eye on things. I explained how Nessie loved to drink animal blood and had never
been tempted by a human. Bella told me she had no feelings of thirst around
Nessie at all, just pure love and astonishment that we'd created such a
beautiful perfect creature together. Her eyes bore into mine with intense
passion and longing. I knew we would have to be alone together soon. Just as I
was about to bring my lips down on hers, the whole family arrived. They all
approached Bella carefully, but soon everything seemed to be as it was before.
Everyone hugged Bella, clearly pleased to have her back home where she belongs.
Nessie giggled and clapped her hands, Bella scooped her up and held her
close. "Welcome home mama!" She trilled sweetly.
I had never witnessed
my whole family's complete silent astonishment before!
Looks like my special little lady had just uttered her
first words!
CHAPTER NINETEEN
THE TRIAL
BELLA CULLEN:
My reunion with Jacob was bittersweet. He was my best friend
and I'd tried to kill him the last time I'd seen him! I hugged him close and
made my apologies. Then I had pushed him in annoyance, forgetting my vampire
strength as he spun away from me ending up a crumpled heap on the floor.
Through gritted teeth I told him under no circumstances was I pleased he had
imprinted on my daughter! But I softened towards him when I saw how much my
Nessie ( Edward has got me calling her that now!) adored and worshipped him.
Jacob promised me he would never hurt her and he would always protect her. He
explained that he would take things slowly and make sure Nessie was completely
happy with the situation before anything happened between them. I hoped they
had years yet, but going by the way she was growing so fast I had a feeling it
wouldn't be long until she was a teenager.
Carlisle had found evidence of one other hybrid. The bad
news was he had shot into teenage years quickly. The good news was he had
stayed eighteen years old for over one hundred years, with no signs of further
aging. This pleased me endlessly. I smiled to myself as I thought of my
daughter. She was progressing so much every day. She was so beautiful,
intelligent and special.
The wind lifted my hair in the clearing as I smelled the
scent of the wolves on the breeze. Today was my trial. I had broken
the treaty by biting Jacob. I had brought shame on my family who had upheld the
Quileute treaty for hundreds of years. I was prepared for my punishment. I had
asked Jacob to arrange this trial with Sam as soon as possible. I needed to
know what they planned to do with me! Edward stood by my side, always my rock,
my love, my husband. He was worried about me. I was worried how my punishment
would affect him and Nessie. What if they banished me from Forks? Edward would
not cope with a separation again.
The wolves had changed back to human form when they arrived
at the clearing. Sam eyed me suspiciously. I stared back at him defiantly. Yes,
I had done wrong. I accepted that. But Sam did not understand how it was for a
newborn vampire.
"Bella Cullen. You have broken a fundamental part of
the age old treaty made between the Cullen's and the Quileute tribe. You bit
Jacob Black with intention to kill him. The Cullen's saved him, that is
commendable, but we cannot let your deed go unpunished. Do you understand?
" Sam asked me, his voice full of power and authority.
I felt the love
radiating out from the Cullen's behind me.
My family.
"Yes, Sam I understand, " I replied with my head
held high.
"But I would like
to explain myself please", I added.
He nodded as I began to explain everything that had happened
to me since I was changed. He and the other pack members listened until I had
finished.
Sam's dark eyes bore into mine. "Thanks for explaining
Bella, but it still doesn't change the fact that you broke the treaty! And how
do we know that you do not thirst human blood anymore? We have no
evidence!" He stated. "The Cullen's should NOT have changed
you!" He raged.
Suddenly Jacob appeared from nowhere, he flew out from the
bushes, his face like thunder. "Sam Uley! Would you rather she had died?
Would you rather poor Nessie had no Mother? Forget the stupid treaty! I
survived! And if you want evidence I'll get you evidence!" Jake spat out
excitedly.
I smiled softly at my best friend. I really didn't deserve
him at all! My feelings towards him soon changed though as he dragged my father
Charlie out into sight. I gasped and hid my head against Edward's chest. Just
what was Jacob playing at! Sam watched the scene unfold incredulously. Jacob
took my hands in his and gazed into my eyes as Edward hissed and growled next
to me.
"Chill
Cullen!" Jacob snapped. "Bella, I have explained everything to
Charlie. He knows about the wolves, he knows about the vampires. He knows you
had to be changed or die. Yes, it was a shock to him, but when I explained he
might never see you again he had to come and let you prove yourself to the
pack! Charlie believes in you Bella! No matter what you are!" Jacob said
his voice charged with emotion.
I gazed at my Father standing awkwardly behind Jacob. I
smelled his very human scent, so different to the shape-shifters and vampires.
My throat burned and venom pooled in my mouth. But as I looked into his kind,
loving eyes the ravenous thirst for blood drained away from my body and I fell
into his arms with a strangled cry. I heard Sam and the pack gasp behind me.
Charlie clung to me,
"Oh Bella I have missed you sweetheart!" He cried
into my hair.
My still heart seemed to jump in my chest. Charlie was here
and he knew and accepted me for what I was! Edward smiled happily.
He turned to face Sam, "There is your evidence Sam
Uley! Bella has her thirst under control now. Look! Her eyes have turned topaz
now! Our family is no threat to you or the pack," Edward stated
confidently.
I held Charlie's hand
tightly, trying not to squeeze too hard. Jacob smiled tentatively at me.
" Jacob Black, this is not how I would want me and
Dad's first meeting to happen. But I guess I should thank you! Even though you
did take a big stupid risk!" I scolded.
"Come on Dad, there is someone very special you need to
meet," I smiled leading him away from the clearing.
"STOP!" Shouted Sam. "The pack deems
punishment must be given! The treaty was broken! Our ancestors did not make
this treaty for YOU to disregard it Bella!"
I turned around in
exasperation. "Sam, please! The treaty is outdated now. There are no
enemies here. Should we not strive for peace now between wolves and
vampires?" I asked him, my palms spread in supplication.
His face was contorted with rage and confusion. He did not
like to appear weak in front of the pack. "We have decided you must be
locked away securely for five years alone with no company. We will provide food
for you. If you or your family disagree, we will have no choice but to wage war
on you and yours. This includes humans," he said with steely determination
as he looked at Charlie.
A low hiss escaped my
lips as I instinctively crouched in front of my Father in a defensive pose. The
clearing crackled with electricity and anticipation. Suddenly the atmosphere
was broken by the snapping of twigs and branches. In a whirlwind of speed a
figure in black appeared in the centre of the clearing.
It was Etienne Lucier!
CHAPTER TWENTY
POWER OF PERSUASION
ETIENNE LUCIER:
As I looked around at the vampires and shape-shifters I knew
I had made the right decision in tracking Bella here. She needed me and I had a
lot of making up to do.
"Etienne?"
Bella whispered with shock.
"Etienne!" A handsome fellow with
bronzed hair growled.
I guessed this must
be Edward Cullen! "Bella, I am so sorry for my conduct, please forgive me.
Edward, a pleasure to meet you!" I said with flourish and a gentlemanly
bow.
The head of the pack stared venomously at me, "We do
not tolerate strangers, especially vampires, on our land!" He said
furiously.
I bowed, my black cloak billowing around me. " Dear
sir, I intend only to help my friend Bella. I do not believe your argument against
her to be solid or true," I said with a devilish grin.
I gave Sam Uley his
due, he acted very bravely as he stepped up close to me. "Leave now
vampire!" He quietly spoke.
I smiled graciously
as I stared deep into his eyes. " Sam, you will command your pack to
forget the trial, you will finally accept the treaty is outdated and useless.
You will leave Bella be. Let her be with her family in peace. You will not
interfere in the Cullen's business again. Do you understand?" I softly
spoke, as I held his gaze. " Leave now with your pack. Explain to them
this incident is all forgotten about. Go and live your life and be happy!"
I smiled.
The pack stood behind
him looking confused. A beautiful girl with long pleated hair stared at me in
awe. I gazed back, captivated by her dark eyes.
Sam Uley turned and walked away from the clearing, the pack
following him. "Sam? Sam!" I heard one of the males ask.
Sam did as I'd asked
him to do. He told the pack that was that. No more. I smiled to myself. Mind
control was such a special gift! And when I can use it to help those dear to
me, even better! The girl with the dark eyes turned back to stare at me. I fell
into those eyes and wished she would stay longer. She smiled shyly as she leapt
into the air, her body becoming a blur of grey fur. I gazed into the woods with
amazement. I'd heard of shape-shifters but never seen them in glorious action!
I felt Bella's hand on my arm, her now topaz eyes gazing up
into mine. "Etienne. How? Why? After what I did to you?" She asked
curiously.
"Bella, I behaved despicably towards you! I wanted to
apologise, to make things right. I had to help when I tracked you here and
discovered what was happening! " I explained.
Her strong arms enveloped me in a hug. " I forgive you
Etienne! I couldn't have gotten through the last few months without you! You
helped me get back to my family!" She smiled squeezing me hard.
"Ouch!" I
exclaimed.
Bella pulled away laughing. Edward was staring at me with
less anger now and more curiosity. He shook my hand and smiled crookedly. I
bowed graciously. " Edward, I hope you can forgive me too?" I asked.
He smiled and gripped
my hand tighter, " As long as you never touch my wife inappropriately
again, then, of course, no problem I forgive you," he said.
I smiled as he released my hand, "You have my utmost
promise to behave myself," I stated seriously.
Suddenly the rest of the Cullen’s surrounded me, full of
curiosity about the vampire they had never met before. I liked them, especially
the serious Doctor Carlisle Cullen. I imagined he would have some stories to
tell. Rosalie and Alice were gorgeous creatures, but sadly attached! Esme was
graceful and gracious. Emmett and Jasper seemed decent fellows. I felt a
strange overwhelming feeling of not being alone anymore and it was very
pleasant. I smiled over at Bella as she led her bewildered Father away from the
clearing. She smiled back sweetly.
Everything was right in the world again.
CHAPTER TWENTY ONE
EPILOGUE: FIVE YEARS LATER
Part One:
Renesmee Cullen lifts up the long hem of her scarlet red
backless gown and daintily steps out of the front door to the waiting limousine.
The door opens and a handsome man in a tuxedo steps out. He gazes at the vision
of loveliness in front of him in awe. He whistles lightly and breathes wow under
his breath. He takes her arm and lightly kisses the soft pale skin of her
cheek. "You look like an angel, " he softly says, his voice full of
love.
Nessie smiles and blushes prettily. Her hybrid heart pounds
as he takes her hand and helps her into the car. As they speed off into the
night, he turns her face towards him and slowly brings his lips to hers.
"Oh Jacob," she sighs as his fingers trace the outline of her
cheekbone. The beautiful couple grin at each other widely.
"So how does it
feel to be Mrs Black?" He asks softly.
"It's the most
amazing feeling in the world!" Nessie states throwing her arms around her
new husband's neck excitedly.
The driver turns around to smile at them, "Hey guys, it
won't be long until you're alone on your honeymoon! Can you please stop
distracting the chauffeur!" says Carlisle laughing.
"Sorry Grandfather!" Nessie laughs as she snuggles
into Jacob's chest, happy in the knowledge that they finally belong to each
other forever and ever. Tonight they will become as one. She couldn't be
happier. This was meant to be since the moment she was born.
Jacob was her soul
mate, as she was his.
Forever.
Part Two:
They had long ago sneaked away from Nessie and Jacob's
wedding party. This was the moment they had been waiting for. She was ready to
give herself completely to him and he was ready to take all she had to give.
His cool lips met her warm ones as they kissed gently. She wanted more as she
bit softly on his mouth, causing him to growl uncontrollably. For five years
they had been completely captivated by the other. Their love had grown quickly
and remained steady and true. She was now twenty, he was eternally eighteen.
Leah Clearwater could not believe how much she loved and
adored Etienne Lucier. She loved a bloodsucker! How ironic! From the moment
they had met in the clearing that day they had been inseparable. She loved him
beyond reason. He was her everything. He felt the same about her. One problem
though...She was getting older every second. Time stood still for Etienne. They
wanted to be young forever, together. There was only one way and tonight was
the night.
No more being careful with each other. No risk of Etienne
accidentally killing her with a touch or a kiss on her warm neck. Although he
had been around for centuries so was very controlled. She had never been scared
of him. Even with his special gift. He didn't have to control her, she loved
him at first sight. She knew he was the one for her. Boom! Like a thunderbolt!
She didn't even mind when he'd told her about his infatuation with Bella. She
put it down to his being alone for so long. He'd latched on to the first friend
he'd found. She understood.
They had fled to Etienne's house in Vancouver. It was
beautiful. Here, tonight he would change her. He would help her with the
changes just as he had helped Bella. She was scared and nervous, but excited too.
This was the only way. She loved and trusted him completely. After she was over
the newborn phase they planned to travel the world together. She felt a pang of
regret when she thought of her poor Mother and brother Seth. She had left a
letter on her bed, telling them not to worry about her, she would be in touch,
but she loved Etienne and had to be with him. Her Mother would be confused, but
Seth would be angry as he knew what her lover really was.
The time had come. Etienne gently lay Leah on the bed, her
dark hair fanning out around her. She was the most beautiful creature and he
loved her insanely. She had changed his whole life for the better. She had
given him love and belief. Now he would take her human life so they could be
together forever. Perfect. They kissed softly, her heart
beating a steady rhythm against his chest. He would miss that sound. He raised
her wrist and brought his lips to the soft skin there. He kissed her pulse. He
listened to her beating heart one more time then quickly bit into the
deliciously soft skin. Her body bucked and writhed as the venom made its deadly
way into her bloodstream where it would finally reach her heart and stop its
beating instantly.
" I love you Leah," he cried as he watched his
love writhe in agony.
It seemed to take
forever but soon it was over and her beautiful heart came to a standstill.
In a few days she would awake. And like a beautiful
butterfly emerging from its cocoon she would be ready to open her vampire eyes
to this new world. He would be here, right by her side.
Forever.
Part Three:
Edward and Bella Cullen, father and mother of the beautiful
bride stood in the night forest bathed in moonlight. "It's a beautiful
night, my love," Edward said as he kissed Bella's cheek.
She turns to gaze at
him sadly, "It is Edward. But I am sad as I have lost my little
girl!" She turns her face away from
him.
"Don't be sad
beautiful Bella. Our daughter is in love, Jacob adores her. It was meant to be.
She will be fine, please don't worry!" Edward takes her hand as they run
into the forest to hunt.
Later, they lay entwined in each other's arms, the moonlight
reflecting off their perfect marble bodies. " I love you Bella, tonight,
tomorrow and for the rest of my existence," Edward whispers against her
skin.
" I love you too Edward. Until all the stars fade and
the world ends," Bella whispers back.
A shooting star falls from the night sky as if swooning at
the sight of the marble creatures below. Their musical voices carry words of
love and sighs on the wind.
Forever.
THE END
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